A/N: This is Newts story so its all in his POV, stay tuned till the end to see why I wrote this.
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My mom was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer when I was 10.
Times have been tough since. Slowly- my family started to fall apart. But Tommy had been there for me through everything, and I'm thankful for that.
Sixth grade, I started getting bullied. I tried to let it go, but I was too sad and started to cut myself. I was not a very happy child I used to be.
Seventh grade, the bullying continued, I lost Tommy at times too because I would constantly fight with him. I hated myself, I really did. My only friend at that time was my mom.
I love her so much.
Eighth grade; I finally became happy with myself, I had my best friend with me too. I finally started to love myself, and excepting the love I had. I didn't get bullied anymore, or at least so bad. And during that time I was a year clean! I got over a lot of fears, and I took care of my mom.
Let's talk about her. She was almost diagnosed three years ago. She's also the best thing thats ever happened to me. She's so beautiful and sweet, and she was always there for me when no one else was.
I love my family, but it saddened me that during that time my mother was diagnosed my father started drinking more often and always fought with me. Nothing physical would happen, just a lot of yelling. I still love my father.
My family is a big part of me, but so is Tommy. He's my best friend- I'm so lucky to have him in my life.
During 8th grade I joined the Track team, I loved it. But I started getting motion sickness and having anxiety.
April 1st, 2015
My dad was picking me up from Track at school, I smiled and told him how I improved, He started crying.
He never cries.
I gave him a very confused look, asking what was wrong. And he told me, he didn't want to.
"Your mom is in Hospice." I gave him a confused look once again, and then he said "She's not going to last much longer, Newt." He sobbed. I started crying, I didn't get to see her that day.
Hospice: Comforting someone before they go. (As in passing- this is the term we use.)
April 2nd, 2015
After school I wanted to go see my mom, so my dad picked me up and off we went.
Once we got there I couldn't help but cry, she was out of it from the medication and drugs. I saw my sister and hugged her tightly, sobbing.
I couldn't let go of my mom like this, I know we've been preparing for this moment since the day she was diagnosed, but it was too soon. Especially for her and me, she just turned 50 and I was just 13.
I sat on the side of her bed and held her hand, she squeezed it as much as she could, I cried.
She was crying as well- while she was out of it.
I was there for hours, I didn't get home till around ten at night.
At some point we thought she wasn't going to make it through the night, so we said our goodbyes that day. I called Tommy, sobbing. I told him I said my goodbyes, he came to the hospital a half hour later and said his as well.
It was hard, really hard.
I was broken.
April 3rd, 2015 last day till spring break.
I left early, I got all my friends worried sick, due to the fact I was crying till I had to leave.
Tommy make me and my mom a "we love you" card and wrote a message to the both of us, my mom has impacted him a lot as well. All my classmates signed it and he gave it to me in my third period right when I just had got up to leave.
On the way to the Hospital was awful, it was too quiet. But I don't blame my father for not wanting to talk at the moment.
Once we got there I saw my aunts and hugged them, we were all tired, empty, and broken.
- later that evening -
My aunt was talking to her, my mom. I smiled, joining in. Then she said, "Everything's going to be okay." And just like that, mother took her last breath.
I screamed, I couldn't breathe, I was crying way too hard. So was Thomas and the rest of us. I didn't know what to do or how to except it.
I lost my inspiration.
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A/N
The reason there wasn't a lot of Newtmas in this was because this is my story, so in this case Newt is me and Thomas is my best friend Sam.
I wanted to just kind of put my story out there because I wanted you guys to know then not to know BECAUSE I tended to get extremely upset and it was probably due to all of this.
Thank you for reading. ❤️
Lots of love, Hope.
