JJK Oneshots

A Day Worth Waiting For (Gojo)

"First of all, I think I should be asking you that. Secondly, I think my fear is pretty justified when I find the person I love sitting in a bathtub filled with water, ready to open their wrists"

"Well that sounds a bit gruesome" you muttered.

"Am I wrong?" Gojo asked, tilting his head to the side.

There was a moment of silence between you, before you spoke a simple, quiet: "No"

You couldn't hold back the tears any longer. Once you said it out loud, admitted what you were going to do, it was like a dam broke. You just started sobbing uncontrollably.

"It's okay doll, it's okay" Gojo assured as he picked you up and carried you out of the bathroom.

You were still wrapped in the towel and holding onto Gojo's jacket for dear life. You didn't even remember what had originally gotten you so upset that you would resort to what you had attempted to do.

Gojo had been through this with you before. The last time this happened, it was with you trying to overdose on your medication. It was one of the few times in his life he had been absolutely terrified. Seeing you laying there unconscious, with an empty pill bottle next to you, had been one of the most horrific moments of his entire life.

Now it was happening all over again, but this time he had been on time. This time he had gotten to you before you'd done anything stupid, this time he'd managed it. After Suguru left, Gojo had sworn he wouldn't lose anyone else like that. He wouldn't let anyone else disappear into the shadows again.

Gojo sat down on the bed, still holding you in his arms.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry-so sorry" you kept blubbering while burying your face to his chest.

"Hey, hey, it's okay" Gojo said, grabbing your hand and attempting to ground you through his touch. "Just breathe"

After your breathing and crying calmed down, you looked up at him with tearful eyes.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what happened" you muttered, trying to get up from his lap.

"Nu-uh, you're not going anywhere till we talk" he pulled you back.

"What am I even supposed to say?"

"Just something, I don't want you to be alone with this. You know I won't leave you alone before I get a satisfactory explanation" he half joked.

Gojo just wanted to hear you say that you'd be okay. He just wanted to hear you say this was just a fluke, and it wouldn't happen again. At the same time, he knew you couldn't promise that. That you wouldn't just magically start getting better, because you or he wanted you to.

"I don't know what happened. It just seemed like the right choice, but the second I saw you, I was like "What the fuck am I doing?" and it didn't feel like it made any sense anymore"

You kept staring at your hands while leaning the side of your head against his chest. What you said was true. Seeing him had made you change your mind in the end. You could have tried to reach for the razor again, even though it would have been futile with him in the same room. He would have stopped you, no doubt about that, and besides you didn't want him to see you do that to yourself. The act itself was way different from just seeing the aftermath.

"Well, I'm glad I have that effect on you, but that doesn't really give me much insight to your mental state right now"

"I guess it doesn't, but I don't really know what else to tell you" you sighed.

You just sat there in silence, Gojo embracing you and you leaning against his chest. You didn't know what to tell him. Even if you managed to formulate something that would make sense to you, it would probably just sound crazy to him. It was so hard to put any of it into words, let alone in a way someone else would understand.

"I don't know what's going on in that pretty head of yours, but I just want you to know that no matter what you think, I'm not better off without you, and neither is anyone else you know" Gojo said suddenly.

"Thank you" you said after a while more of silence, looking up at him.

"What for?" he asked as he met your gaze.

"I guess I just appreciate the reminder at times like these"

"I'll remind you for the rest of our lives, if you'll let me" he smiled softly.

You placed a hand on the side of Gojo's face and caressed his cheek with your thumb.

"I'd like that"

Maybe one day you'd love life as much as you loved him, maybe that day was worth waiting for.