I see him.
He's sitting there, head in his hands, staring into the distance.
"I can't...I thought I could but I'm not ready to talk to him yet." I tell the girls.
I walk back to my room to find Jameson laying on my bed.
"What are you doing in here?" I ask him.
"Lay down," he says patting next to him. "I want to talk to you."
I lay next to him as he wraps an arm around me.
"About?"
"I'm so proud of you. You haven't been out of this room in three days. Haven't spoken, smiled, eaten. They fed you, correct?" He says.
"Correct." I smile.
"Good."
"Do you think we got married too early? That's why this happened? Or he just never really loved me?"
"Oh, no no no. He loves you so much. No, I don't think you go married too early, though you're still young. He just...the mention of Will was...devastating for him. Especially because he was never in his life, then he threatened you. Grayson didn't know how to react. When people are upset or angry, we sometimes say things we don't mean. And what he said...he definitely did not mean."
A knock.
"Y/n, there's someone here to see you." Oren says.
"I can't talk to him yet. Send him away. Please."
"It's not Grayson."
"It's not? Send em' in." I say.
The door opens and a small child comes running in.
"Sarah!" My baby cousin, she's six, she's all I have left from my old life.
Her and her parents.
"Y/n! Hiiiiii!" She giggles.
"Sweetie, what are you doing here?"
"Oh, I don't know! The police dropped me off here!"
"Police? Oren, what is she talking about?"
"I'll explain, follow me."
"Honey, stay here. This is Jameson." I introduce her.
"Jameson this is Sarah." He smiles and reaches a hand out to her.
Her small hand shakes his.
She tugs my shirt.
"He's cute. Is he your boyfriend?" She whispers giggling.
"Oh no! Sweetheart I'm married, just not to him."
"Married?!"
"Mhm, but I'll see you soon. Then we'll talk!" I smile.
"Okay, byeee!"
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"Why did the police drop her off? Where are my Tia and Tio?"
Oren takes a moment as if he's configuring how to tell me what he says next.
"Y/n, sit down."
I sit.
"You're Tia and Tio...they've been in an accident. They have passed, the crash was far too severe. The girl has to live here, because you're all she has left."
I feel as if the air has been knocked out of me.
First Grayson in the hospital, his accident.
The threat.
The argument with Grayson.
We lost all our money.
Now this.
"No-" I breathe.
And the tears start flowing.
The next thing I know, I'm running out the door, into the rain, collapsing to my knees.
Sobbing, I feel two strong arms around me, lifting me off the ground.
I don't fight back, I let whoever it is carry me.
I'm placed on the couch and a towel is wrapped around my shoulders.
"Shh, you'll get sick."
Grayson.
Choked sobs come out of me.
"Y/n, James told me a bad joke!" Sarah said running into the room.
"Jameson, and you said you wouldn't tell her! Wait, Y/n what's wrong?"
I wipe away the tears, pulling Sarah onto my lap.
"Sweetie, I- I have to tell you something."
"Okay, what is it?" She asks wiping tears off my face.
"Oh, sweetheart." I start sobbing again and hold her in a tight hug. Her little arms wrapping around me.
"Okay, I'm sorry, I'm going to tell you now. God, this is hard. Sarah the reason the police dropped you off here is because you have to live with me now." I tell her that first.
"But what about momma and daddy?"
I'm on the brink of tears again.
"Sarah, your parents were in an accident. They've gone to heaven now."
Tears fill her eyes.
"Are they happy? Why did they leave me?" A tear slides down her cheek.
I wipe it gently.
"They are so very happy now. They had to leave you so you could have a better chance to be happy as well, they didn't have much choice."
"But I'll miss them."
"I know. But know they love you so very much and will always be in your heart."
She smiles.
"I'm just happy they're happy!"
I hug her.
She's too young to understand.
She runs off dragging Oren off with her.
Jameson sits next to me wrapping an arm around my shoulder, I lean to cry into his chest.
"Why is this all happening now?! All at once! Why does the world hate me?" I sob.
"Shh, don't talk." I see Grayson.
He's standing there like he cannot move. He looks like he's in shock.
I want to run to him.
But I can't move.
I'm too paralyzed from grief.
Authors note:
So everyone!!
Very sad POV 💔
I know what it's like to have things hit you all at once, like the whole world is against you. But stay strong and you'll get through, even though it's hard.
JESUS LOVES YOU! AND SO DO I !!!!
