My Silent Screams (on going)

Athena

I've never thought of you.
No desire to glimpse, it's true.
Pride restrained me so silence became my play.
Not will was there to find a way.

I shut my eyes to think deep.
Feelings of longing emerge in my sleep.
So I try and find a way back,
And found myself under a tree of lilac.

I wandered there like it was a hazy dream
Until I saw you and ran as I scream.
Athena, how have you been?
Startled to see me as I wasn't what seem.

I reintroduced myself as now 21.
Yet you're still that person when I had gone.
Embrace was the next thing I felt.
You ask what brought me and I answered "guilt".

I wasn't kind to you nor treated you well.
I was always so selfish, I knew you could tell.
Leaving was not part of my gamble.
Forgetting was just inevitable.

But you, Athena, hushed me through my tears
And asked how I'm doing, what happened through the years.
We sat, we walked, we talked for hours end.
Lilac, sunset, mountains and river we spent.

How precious this moment, how a miracle this could be.
I traveled through time just to say my peace
Beyond the sands of time, beyond adversities.
I've come here to let go of all of my what ifs.

And the time we have here is scarce.
I knew it's bound to end and it never was fair.
I hugged you one last time, the tightest one could go.
Goodbye, Athena, I whispered as I clenched my throat.

Heard the moans of an old creaky floor.
I look around and I'm back to where I am before.
Struck by truth as it could never be real.
I knew what it was, and it was but a dream.