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chapter 29 - behave

I walked towards Killian and Jacob who seemed to be waiting for the other near the front door

It was 7:30am

Too early for me I got up at half past 6 that's way to early for me

I'm surprised I'm not the last down

"We only have to wait for adrain the others have already set off" Jacob explained and I nodded saying oh

Adrain then came down the stairs looking....hot

Shut up Izzy!

"Ready, sweetheart?" He asked me I glare at him for the nickname

"Drop the nickname other than that yeah" I said and then the guard opened the door letting us through and I walked straight out

Adrain tried grabbing my wrist but I shoved him off , I hope he hasn't forgot about yesterday cause I meant it

They have too stay off my back for abit

We all get in the car in-between two others

The security here is crazy and I still got through it

I think they have increased it though since yesterday

I sit besides adrain and then besides him say Jacob and then it's summer and last adrain

I felt adrain touch my neck where the burn was I flinch away quickly though I didn't want him to removed more concealer and see other scars from the past

"Sorry does it still hurt?" He asked

"Kinda but I'm fine" I said and I'm starting to realise the repeating pattern of saying I'm fine

Who is "fine" these days

Your either doing alright or not good at all

"I'm sorry about it Izzy I can tell you don't really forgive any of us" adrain whispered in my ear

He's right.

I don't forgive any of them completely because they really did take it too far and then still had the audacity to tell Leonardo

It isn't really forgiveness though.

I walk on eggshells around them , I don't fear them but I don't trust them

"It's fine adrain your all forgiven" I said and stared out the window at the trees passing

I think back to Coles death the other day and think I wonder if anyone does miss him.

I don't think anyone would he's a monster

He-

He selled women's body's for money keeping them in what he called the house but it was actually a whore house

The place I grew up in from 5 - 14

I fought back most the time and got punished with physical abuse

Until I was 9 years old

Cole had enough of my bullshit and tied me down

That was the first day I couldn't scream

I didn't yell or scream I just went numb I cried and then I went numb for two weeks straight I didn't talk and I barely ate or drank

I thought everytime after that I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen again

Until I was 13 it happened again on my birthday..

This time it wasn't cole it was a man who paid too do it

People are so sick I don't understand how you would want to do that to someone

After that I killed that same guy

With a pair of scissors he was my first kill I had enough

The next year instead of protecting myself from it I protected the other who were there from it

Summer got it for the first time on her 10th birthday and then again when she turned 13

She did the same as me for the last year before we escaped protected everyone else by sacrificing ourselves

A few weeks after I turned 14 I had enough I had been taken advantage of sexually 3 times in there

I did the best I could to fight but I didn't always have it in me

Clearly neither did summer

I escaped and let 15 other girls free along with us I couldn't take everyone but I promised everyone I'd kill him

I'd kill cole

That's exactly what we did

Thats why I killed him

I could take the millions of beatings from him but I couldn't take the robbery of my innocence at 9

I killed for my dignity

I was lying when I said that I became an assassin for money I did it because I didn't wanna watch other people go through the things I did

I thought 6 times of taken dignity was enough and then came along

Him.

My spirals of thoughts came to a pause As we pulled up at the huge building there men work in

My eyes were watering blinking it away as I exited the car

I'm definitely about to start my period I'm so emotional and I always over think like that when on my period

"Welcome to the mafia warehouse" Jacob said and walked to the front of it all the boys faces dull and emotionaless

They really do change completely when at work.

"Behave please" Killian sternly told us

"Of course" summer said sarcastiy Killian took a deep breath looking as though he was praying this would go okay

We walk in it was busy and modern looking in here

"We have a meeting for this meeting you can wander around while waiting for us the rest you will come with us" adrain explained

I mouthed 'blah blah blah' to summer as he spoke

He turns to me and I nod like I did nothing

"Just don't get into trouble" Jacob said but I could tell he knew we'd get into trouble anyways

They all walk off and I turn to summer smiling

"Let's have some fun"

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