I do not know what to do.
He does not like the way I do
He says he wants me and yet he doesn't long for me every minute of the day
And he does not answer my messages within seconds.
He says he wants me
And yet he can stand to be without me
He does not write to me
He does not show any
Affection.
I feel stupid
To care so deeply
To use the word love
He says his intentions are clear
But how can they be
When he doesn't even like me?
Nothing is in my name
no art, no song
And yet everything is in his
And he knows it
And
He does not care
He said he'd be fine without me
So why even bother
To lead me on again?
I am the artist
Longing to be the muse
And I'll never be loved
The way I do.
But such is the curse
Of us red-lipped girls
We wander the earth
And love
In a way that cannot be replicated
We give
too much.
Maybe if I meet another
That loves as much as me
I will get back the love
I gave away so carelessly.
