"Felix hides his true feelings behind his jokes, his flirtatious behavior and pretends everything is alright...even though it is visible on his face that he is not okay...is he dumb?" Hyunjin spoke to himself as he plopped on his bed
"I'm able to grasp this much about him, i just wish he was more honest with me...rather than behaving tough..." hyunjin sighed
"He probably has some mental problems...that's why he acts the way he does...i want to know more about him..." hyunjin spoke to himself as he shut his eyes
"I told myself i won't lie anymore and won't run away, just when i decide this, felix starts behaving different...fuck." hyunjin spoke as he got up
"I do like him...and i won't pretend that i don't anymore..." hyunjin spoke as he looked at felix's drawings that he made
"I wonder...is it really obvious to him..? That i like him too? I want to know what makes him think that, what made him chase me so bad?" hyunjin thought
"I keep thinking of him, looking at him, dreaming about him..." hyunjin spoke
"This is a bold decision... i can never see myself with any guy...but felix is like a fairy..its like, he casted spells on me to like him." Hyunjin thought as he stared at felix's pictures
"I want to know more about him i gotta ask changbin, han, seungmin about what all they know" hyunjin spoke
He then called changbin suddenly as he made his decision.
"Hello?" Changbin spoke as he picked up the call
"I want to talk to you about felix, that's why I'm calling" hyunjin spoke bluntly
"....really? Why?" Changbin spoke in surprise
"You've never shown interest before so why now" changbin asked suspiciously
"Im just curious" hyunjin spoke
"So a change of heart huh? Well ..thats good.." changbin spoke
"Ask away" changbin sighed
"I want to know everything about him..and you know, about what happened between you two..and why did you did what you did" hyunjin spoke
"I... just can't tell you like that, if you don't care about him...just let it be" changbin replied
"Ok look...I've started to like him...and i wanna understand him better" hyunjin spoke as he bit his lip
"Really?" Changbin spoke in surprise
"Yeah" hyunjin spoke
"Just find out yourself...why are you asking me?" Changbin spoke coldly
"Ok listen, where are you at right now?" Hyunjin asked
"At the gym" changbin replied
"I'm coming to you, stay there" hyunjin spoke
"Wait-" changbin spoke but hyunjin hung up
Hyunjin hurried and dressed up, he rushed to the gym as soon as possible. The gym wasn't that far away and as hyunjin reached there, changbin was surprised to see hyunjin acting like this just because of felix. The gym was pretty empty at that time and hyunjin smiled as he saw changbin.
"What is this? You really came?" Changbin asked in surprise as he put his weigh down
"Just so you know...this isn't a joke.." hyunjin spoke as he walked towards him
"I see ...uh ...so do you really like him? Or are you-" changbin spoke and got cut off
"I do..i dont want to hurt him so tell me, i want to know firstly what happened between you two" hyunjin asked as changbin was deep in a thought
"Please tell me changbin I'm serious" hyunjin insisted
Changbin could see it on hyunjin's face and tell that hyunjin was honest, he decided to tell him everything as he felt that this was the right time.
"Okay if thats the case...there's no point for me to keep it to myself anymore" changbin sighed as hyunjin patiently waited for him to speak
"As you know i liked him since the beginning...i made friends with him...he knew i liked him but, he didn't like me as i did, I'm not upset about that anymore...i care about him alot and i respect his decision" changbin spoke
"When i realized that he likes you..i was quite jealous and i knew you wouldn't feel the same way as he did, he only got hurt by you...you were pretty rude to him. I just wanted to protect him, I know i got really agitated and fought you..i don't know what got into me" changbin continued
"You are a good friend to me hyunjin, but the day i saw felix cry i couldn't help it" changbin spoke hesitantly
"Why did he cry?" Hyunjin asked
"He does have emotions after all..he genuinely likes me...even though...his way of expressing was what made me doubt it." Hyunjin thought
"He cried because he feels lonely. Since a kid he has been all alone, his parents live in Australia...with his sisters, he lives here with his grandma..basically, since a kid he has been like this, maybe he didn't get loved enough as a child." Changbin spoke
"He lives all alone...shit.. even if he only has his granny at this point.. that's still hard.." hyunjin thought
"I felt really bad for him... one day i went to accompany him at his house...i tried to be a someone in his life...but then i realized, that i wasn't the one he needes...it is you that he truly wants..hyunjin.." changbin spoke as hyunjin was silent
"He couldn't stop talking about you.." changbin spoke
"Why didn't you tell this to me before?" Hyunjin asked
"You had nothing for him, why would you even care to understand? When i saw you treating felix like shit..and pushing him away...i felt bad for him, i wanted him to stop..but he won't...so i tried to stop you.." changbin spoke
"I do understand everything now...and honestly I'm not mad at you anymore" hyunjin spoke
"Me neither...i was mad as fuck before, you know." changbin sighed
"I know" hyunjin spoke calmly
"I can understand why everything that happened happened...i can't really blame anyone. " hyunjin thought
"There's...something else..." changbin spoke hesitantly after a while
"What?" Hyunjin questioned
"But dont tell him" Changbin spoke
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