The myth of 'me'

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Indulge.
Go ahead, indulge in your tiny pleasures, unknowing of the fact that at alter times, you think back and utterly despise yourself for what you did.
How dare you
How dare you talk to me that way
How dare you speak such words in the presence of me
How dare you pity me??
How dare you not pity me??
What is wrong with you.
FUCK you
Fuck you how dare you
I hate you
You selfish disgusting prick how dare you
How dare you how dare you how dare you you fucking whore
You disgusting cunt
You should slap yourself
It's all your fault
It's all your fault it's always been
Its your fault, everything is your fault it's you only you only you you you are the reason for all this you you are the sole reason for bad you are the reason for sin so remove yourself indefinitely,
You're shaking, you're scared, you're stupid, you're dumb, you'll never amount to anything you sad excuse of a human being.
I despise your very existence.
Everything every single tiny little thing about you,
Everything.
There's not a single good thing about you.
I despise you.
From the deepest parts of my self I despise you.
I hate you
I hate you more than you could ever hate yourself.
You're despicable.
A liar and a cheater.
You disgust me, you're disgusting, remove yourself from my sight for my eyes shall not be shown something as miserable as your retching existence.

Fuck you
I hate you you condescending litte fuck.
Always begging for pity.
You're not sick you're not ill, you're just desperate for attention aren't you, be honest with yourself now, you could be perfectly normal but you're itching for attention, that's all you exist for at this point.
You're disgusting
Ignorant, selfish, lacking, stupid, dumb, idiotic, sick, disgusting, retching, rotting.
I've never loved you, I was just desperate for attention and you took the bait.
You are not allowed to complain, you are not allowed to be unsatisfied, I gave you what you wished for, I did what you asked for, you better be satisfied.
Be satisfied with you pleasurable little life.
Be satisfied with your disgusting self.
Be satisfied with your own ignorance.
Be satisfied with yourself, you made it, you achieved it, you ruined me.
You've absolutely conepletly and utterly ruined another mortal exist.
Be satisfied
I hate you
Be happy
I despise you
Be glad
I wish to choke you
Be joyful
I wish for you to experience never ending torture
Wohoo you made it
Kill yourself
Yayy I made it
Choke on your own blood
I'm satisfied
You liar
I'm happy
You liar
I'm okay
You liar
No matter how pitiful you get, I'll still hate you, I'll hate you, you can never seek redemption, no matter how much you endure it will never be enough to satisfy my thirst for your agony.
I yearn for your pain
I beg for your demise
I pray on your downfall

I feel like I am trapped, trapped inside a cage, and you, you are the one walking past this cage, pitying me, staring at me with a sad expression, trying to pat my head and say it's gonna be okay, and then leave.
You leave you leave me alone
You pitied me and patted my head to feel better about yourself
At times you walk past me and don't even turn to face me, you act as if I don't exist, as if I am not performing acrobatics for you, trying to gain your attention, desperate for your kind words, but all for naught, you will turn again, not even laying your eyes on me for a singular second.
Look at me, please, please look at me, see? I fell down, pity me! Please please atleast look over here.
But nothing
Nothing, you never do anything, nothing nothing at all and I hate you, I hate you because of that, I hate you because you are not as ruined at me, not as ransacked as me, maybe you are, I wouldn't know.
But you don't show it
I want you to beg for my attention just as I beg for your attention.
I want you to stay with me in this cage, I want you to be ruined beyond recovery, I want you to be as horrible as me.
Come to me, embrace me, be with me, be just like me.
Come to me
The next time you turn and look at me
I will
I will make sure of it
I will make sure of it
I will make sure of it
You will beg for my pity
You will be the one locked in the cage
You will be the one begging
Beg
Kneel
Cry
Hurt yourself
Beg for me
Need me
Please
Don't leave me alone
I don't wish to be alone
I wish to be alone
Go away
Leave me alone you fucking piece of shit
Fuck you I hate you I hate you so much
But you whisper sweet nothings into my ear
But you don't actually like me, you pity me that's all you do
That's why you whisper that's why you talk that's why you look that's why you glare
Pity
I will abuse your pity
I will bring you pain and torment just as you have done for me.
Ruin yourself
Ruin yourself for me
Sweetheart
You're so sweet
Torture yourself for me
Be worse than me so I can appear better than you
Be more disgusting than me so I can appear cleaner than you
I wish to be happy just like you
You wish to be happy just like me
But we lie to each other and hurt each other and that how it's always going to be
Enjoy your life for your life is not a constant, it can be removed any second.
Enjoy your existence because it will not be there for long.
You don't have long, express yourself enjoy yourself, love hate envy, experience it all, and then come crawling back to me
You will come back to me
Begging
Because the world is cruel
But I am the lesser evil, aren't I?
How dare you insult me? Watch your place, watch your step, watch everything, for I will pay you back for everything you've done to me.
What have you done to me? Nothing
You've done nothing to me
But I will still hate you
I will still yearn for your agony
Because I hate everyone
Because I will never be anyone
Desperation and self hatred are my fuel, my fuel to take revenge on everyone and everything including you.
Because I hate you more than I hate myself
Because I hate myself more than I can ever hate you