I loved you
or rather the idea of being with you
I loved the thought of calling you mine
Ignoring the fact that you put us on borrowed time
I loved the attention but not of the outsiders silently judging me
I loved the affection but only because your deception , I couldn't see .
I loved the late night talks but I dreaded the drawn out arguments
I loved being around you but that alone made my thoughts incoherent
I loved the thrill and chase of it all
but I could never get over the fall
I loved that we never knew what was in the deep depths of the shore
but what I loved the most , was the idea of being yours
