Philiphobia ( Kylo Ren x Female Reader)

What am I doing (pt 2)

SMUT: Blindfolding, dom/sub energy, spanking, degradation, oral sex male received, sex. 

I felt a blindfold go over my face. I then heard a clicking sound, Kylo took his helmet off. He said " Your safe word is gray." I said " Yes sir." I felt his lips go onto my neck and start to suck on my skin. After a few minutes of attacking my neck he came up to my ear and whispered " Can I take off your clothes?" I said "  Yes." I sat up and Kylo took off my shirt then he took off my pants, leaving me in my bra and underwear. He said "  You have been a bad girl little one." I said " I am sorry commander." He said " Bad girls get punished you know."  I said "  I know." He then said "  Take my hand."  I did. I then felt Kylo sit down he said " Lay back up on my lap." I had to feel around but I got on to his lap with my back facing him. He said " Remember the safe word is gray."  I nodded. I felt his hand hit my ass hard.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten. That was how many times he spanked me. He then said " On your knees." I got off of him and asked " Could you please guide me?"  He answered by taking my hand into his. He walked me over to some space passed my bed. I heard him then take off his pants and he said " Suck." I felt for what was in front of me, I found his thighs I knew where to go. I took him into my mouth and started sucking him off. I heard a groan, his hands then went through my hair and I grabbed onto my head and started thrusting my head down. I gagged on the feeling, shit he is big.  Be quiet slut. I moaned and then he said " Good girl listening to me and taking her punishment." I felt his dick twitch in my mouth, he is about to cum. He kept fucking my mouth, then he finally came, I felt his hot breath near me. He said " Swallow it." I nodded and swallowed. 

He stood me up and then he took my hand and walked me somewhere else. He said "  Lay down." I did and then he said " Such a good girl." I then felt him playing with my clit, I moaned and said "  More."  He asked "  More what?" I answered "  More pressure." He did what I asked. I smiled and moaned, then I felt one of his fingers go into my pussy. I moaned, he fingered me and played with my clit. I was panting and moaning. I said "  Fuck I'm gonna cum." He then stopped. I whimpered at the loss of contact. 

I then felt something teasing me, it was just rubbing against my pussy, I then said "  Fuck me please."  Kylo then said "  What's your safe word?"  I answered "  Gray."  He said "  Good."  His dick went into my pussy, " Gods Kylo." I said. He then started thrusting into me. I moaned, he then asked " Who do you belong to?" I answered " You." He said " Good girl."  I said "  Harder Kylo please."  He then slammed himself into me. I moaned, he kept doing this Gods, I am going to cum. He said "  Not yet little one your doing so good."  I then felt Kylo cum in me, I felt him slide out then I heard him putting his stuff on, I wanted to take off the blindfold but I felt like I shouldn't, I heard his helmet click, and he then came over to me and he took off the blindfold. I said "  Please stay." He said " No."  I said " Please." He said " No." I pulled a blanket over myself and I asked "  Why not?"  He answered "  Because I like to sleep alone."  I wanted to cry again but I didn't I put myself in the position, and I said "  Please just for an hour, I will put the blindfold back on and we can shower." He said "  No."  I then decided to stop trying. He waited for a few seconds then he left my room, I heard the front door open the close. 

I went to my bathroom and I got showered, I got dressed for bed, and when I laid my head down on the pillow the tears started to flow. Gods why? What am I doing? 

Kylo's POV 

Y/n wanted me to stay in her room for the night but I couldn't, when she said "  Please just for an hour, I will put the blindfold back on and we can shower." I said "  No." I waited for her to say please one more time, but she didn't. One part of me wanted to agree to stay but the other part wanted nothing to do with her. I then went to my quarters, showered, got dressed for bed, and went to sleep but before sleep consumed me I heard her say Gods why?  What am I doing?  I wanted to say I am not sure what I am doing. I blocked her from hearing that. I then went to sleep.