TW SH
i get into a fight with my best friend
and it tips me over the edge.
"everything is my fault."
"i'm stupid."
I lift up my shorts and drag my nail across my thigh
it doesn't hurt
it wasn't deep
i go again
it hurts but not as bad i want it to
not as bad as i need it to
i go one more time
it finally hurts enough
so bad that it stings for twenty minutes.
but the next day
the scar is gone,
and i realize,
it still wasn't deep enough.
del.
