grindr; for the hopeless romantics
i scroll through grindr aimlessly, waiting for the sleepiness void to take over. it's almost 3:00a and i have to start getting ready for school in an hour.
as i'm about to force myself to go to sleep, i get a match.
nicolas, 18
i scroll through his pictures once more. you can't see his face in any of them, which is usually a red flag. i see it more as a beige flag. maybe he'll ask for my snapchat and i can see what he looks like.
his location isn't ridiculously far. I might've already seen him before at school or something.
it shows he's online, so i decide to shoot him a message.
me: super odd question
me: do you go to somerville high school?
he immediately gets offline.
you're so stupid, elliot, i think to myself. he probably thinks i'm some overaged gay weirdo or something. if i matched with someone and their first question was them asking what school i go, i'd probably delete grindr all together and pretend like nothing happened.
but there's something about nicolas that gives me deja vu. like i said, his face isn't in any of the pictures. they're more like things he's interested in.
a green dot appears next to his name.
he's back online!!!
me: i'm so sorry if my previous text freaked you out
me: i'm not a creep, i swear
nicolas is typing...
i begin breathing rapidly.
he keeps writing and deleting and it's stressing me out. is he gonna go off on me? accuse me of being a creep.
finally, he sends a message.
nicolas: sounds like something a creep would say :)
i sigh in relief.
so i didn't freak him out.
me: did my texts freak you out?
me: i hope they didn't
me: i didn't mean for them to sound weird/creepy
nicolas: i've received dick pics from old dudes, you're low-key kind of refreshing
low-key refreshing? what the hell does that mean?
me: low-key refreshing?????
nicolas does that stupid write/delete thing again.
nicolas: refreshing
nicolas: like
nicolas: you're not sending dick pics being like "would love to see you slobber on my schlong"
me: that is so gross
nicolas: you're telling me
nicolas: i've gotten like five so far today
i understand where he's coming from. i had a dude message me saying he'd love to fill me up. i cringe at the thought of that.
before i can respond, nicolas goes offline.
maybe it's a sign that I should go to bed as well.
but let me scroll through his pictures again. still no face pics. i think of all the reasons he won't show his face.
maybe he's actually like 45?
or maybe he's a catfish?
he's also avoiding questions. he never answered if he went to somerville high.
me: gn nicolas
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i loved you || nick sturniolo au
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