No Strings Attached

Chapter 3

Nunew was already breathless by the time Zee was finished explaining. He could have been offended by his crude words and to an extent, he was, yet his skin felt so hot and all his nerve endings seemed to be on fire. The soft fabric of his dress shirt seemed coarse against his overly sensitive flesh. He was trembling and aching with something he didn't want.

It was just insane how attracted he is to this insanely handsome man. But the more Nunew stare at Zee, the more he can forgive himself. Anyone would be attracted to this god like creature. He seemed to pull everyone in with just his presence, as if the very air around him was charged with extreme gravitational energy.

"I~"

Then his cellphone vibrated.
A few seconds have passed before Nunew heard it. He straighten his seat. He almost didn't know how to open his bag because of extreme nervousness. He was trembling when he touch the answer button and then stick the device to his ear.
His heart is beating so fast. It's been months since he heard that ringtone he had assigned solely for his Daddy.

His Daddy remembers!

"Daddy?" He hated how hopeful he sounded... How happy it felt...

"NuNew?" His Dad sounds surprise.

Nunew felt like a big rock was place on top of his chest. "Yes, it's me, Daddy."

"Oh, I dialed the wrong number, Sweetheart. I was supposed to call Jaekyung. I'm sorry, NhuNu. I'll call you some other time, okay? I love you, take care of yourself sweetheart."

His Dad already hang up the phone before Nunew could even answer him.
He felt like a helpless kid left alone in a dark room. His Dad didn't even wait for him to talk back. But he realize that it should be fine since he didn't know what to say to him either.

"What's wrong?" He heard Zee's deep low voice. He was trembling when he put down his cellphone.
That's the reason why he hates raising his hope high. Expecting something and how it makes you happy and then all of a sudden reality hit you hard in the face.

He was awaken from his thoughts, when he feel that the car suddenly stop on the side of the road. He feel Zee's body getting closer to his.
"Nunew, what's wrong?" Zee cupped his face and he can feel the heat radiating around him.

Nunew stare at Zee. His beautiful jawline and his very dark almond shape eyes. "Is that your father? What did he say?"

Nunew wanted to laugh hard when Zee mentioned what his dear father say to him. His Daddy just tell him that he made a mistake dialing his number just like how it was a mistake that he was born.

What did his Auntie Toey told him? That his parents were both drunk in a party and that's the time he was made. That was all he was to them. A fucking mistake they could not get rid of.
Nunew firmly close his eyes.

"Goddamnit, Chawarin, look at me." Zee tried to raise Nunew's head higher.
He opened his eyes and stared at Zee once again. "What did he say?"

Again, he wanted to laugh hard. Is Zee concerned with him? Did he care? Obviously not. This was a man who just wanted to fuck his brains out. A guy who would throw him away once he had his fill on him. He only wanted to use him.

But at least he was very honest about it. His eyes started to feel glassy. "Okay."
Zee's eyes furrowed. "Okay?"

"Okay, let's go to a hotel."

His eyes were darkest Nunew had ever seen. They pinned him to the seat with force of physical restraint.

"Why the sudden change of mind?" He felt Zee's soft voice flowing from his perfect skin.

"You're right. I want you. Why should I stop myself? We're adults and we know what we're doing. We both want each other and there's nothing wrong with indulging ourselves a bit."

"What did your father say?"

"I think we need to lay down some rules here." Nunew can feel that his voice started to sound more confident. The pain was still on his chest but it makes him feel stronger. "This is no strings attached sexual arrangement, na? We don't mess with each other's personal lives. We fuck and we leave. We don't ask personal questions. This is it right?"

The coldness of Zee's eyes chilled Nunew to the bone. Zee's smile was tight and hard. "Of course."

"Good. So where should we go?"

Zee started his engine. "We should eat first. Do you like Italian Food?"

"Eating dinner together would look like a date. We're not doing that."

"Ridiculous. We need to talk about our arrangement. You can treat it as a business dinner."

Well Zee has a point. Nunew smiled bitterly. Why didn't think about it that way?

He look at the window and stared outside. The colorful lights on the road, it looks happy as if mocking him.

Nunew should be happy right? At least with Zee he knew it from the very beginning that with this set up, there will be no illusion.
With this man, there were no blurry lines. No 'I love you's', no 'sweetheart', no 'sweetie' and 'darling', no empty words of concern and affection. This man would not say 'take care' only to forget he existed until he called him by mistake.

Zee wouldn't be like those people that Nunew love and care for. Zee wouldn't raise his hope high. Zee wouldn't attempt to make him happy.
Zee can't hurt him.

He smiled mocking at himself. "Of course."