My friends keep asking what happened to the old you
he died a long time ago I'm not the person you once knew
there's a black hole where my heart should be
surrounded by a pool of tar instead of a blue sea
"you used to be nice, used to be kind"
you should have kept Johnny cash's advice in mind
Trust gets you killed love gets you hurt being real get you hated
I'm not the person you once knew who acted as if castrated
the old me would just sat back and then not say a word
now I speak my mind, people are appalled thinking I'm absurd
I don't like to lie not anymore
if I can't be real with you I think I'll just walk out the door
I've told them what happened till I was blue in the face
they never remember why I quit the race
I don't even bother explaining why it happened
I'm just glad it's over and that I'm not a hazbin
I don't say a word I don't speak my mind
unless it's around people my can trust in time
the wise advice of my opinion never mattered
you think I'm crazy torn and tattered
they don't understand that I've been where they are
broken down in a room, my heart full of scars
although one of them has never experienced heartbreak
The other one knows what it feels like to have it speared on a stake
the other is blind and doesn't see what I see
that the girl he's with is the one that shouldn't be
They pry and they nag when I see them
wondering when I'm gonna get back in the saddle again
yes it's been four years and the lesson has been learned
my heart still hurts for a girl who I once yearned
I haven't found anyone in this generation that seems like they're worth it
they're not worried about their hearts and the people who have hurt it
You're lust makes you blind with no sense of clarity
You need to look past the sex and learn to the judge them fairly
The sex isn't gonna pay the bills nor parent your kids
So when it's time to give birth it better be his
because without trust there is no love and no love without trust
without those two things your foundation will rust
with trust comes loyalty hopefully until the end
because some bridges that are burned you cannot rebuild or mend
I can burn many bridges just being myself
I don't even need to ask for whiskey for help
I don't feel guilt about the bridges that are gone
past should stay in the past because of the beginning of a day starts a new dawn
some people are just too different to handle who you are
sometimes it's just best to be friends from afar
occasionally in small doses not for a long time
conversations turned to arguments and can burn bridges and cross lines
I learned to be myself without criticism or fear
Familiar with my friends even though they live near
if I were to die I wouldn't say a fucking thing
Because then you'd only care now at my bells last ring
I tried to make time for you I tried to make plans
when you choose other people with whom you choose to shake hands
others who I do not condone who they are and what they do
I just watched from the far and take in the view
I've been nothing but loyal I've been there when I'm need it to be
why is it so hard for you to be there for me
it shows what my value is and it shows me my worth
even though the end of the day my only value matters to God above the earth
I guess that's all loyalty buys you being tossed to the side
When your good deeds didn't matter as if you weren't even alive
I'm rough around the edges yes I know it's true
what even 100 proof whiskey takes some getting used to
You may think you know me but you only see what I show
I only show the real me the ones whom I truly know
my trust is hard earned and so is my approval
when it comes to giving trust you should be more frugal
I didn't choose to be this way it wasn't my decision
It was the people around me that caused this division
between my heart and my brain calculating and cold
just remember it was your actions that created the mold
so the next time you ask me why I am the way I am
reflect on what you've done for me and whether I should give a damn
Because even a wolf remembers the sound of a gun
The next person who hurts me but doesn't kill me should start learning to run
for the next time it happens I won't be so kind
And if you can't see that then holy shit you'reblind
CZYTASZ
"What Happened to The Old You?" "He Died."
PoezjaIt's funny how when you treat others the way they treat you, it makes you the bad guy. Well it's not funny but you know what I mean. A sword cut's both ways and a gun is dangerous at both ends. You get what you give to me and you are to me what I...