songfic tcf

Happy

on a morning, few days after his late night scroll, fredo had barged into the living room of the super rock villa.
asking him to visit and spend some time in the enable kingdom, he didn't expect this but...

'they all have this weird look so if i can get some rest from it...'

"why not? i don't have anything to do."
he said nonchalantly to fredo who seems oddly happy but he brush it off.

now alone with fredo in office, fredo doing some paper work on his desk and cale laying on the couch nearby reading a novel.

someone coming placing a few pastries on the table in front of cale, couldn't help but think 'they look like a father and son doing bonding time'

both of them relaxing in this silence but cale suddenly get up heading towards his pouch

"my son is something wrong?"

cale was to busy to care he needs to talk to a certain bastard so he garb onto the divine item of the god of death, and go to the next room

ferdo was there confused but decided to follow the red head because you never know what problem he will cause, alone

cale entered a room without much thought, sat on the couch and open the book of the god of death.

Dear God, please, hear me out
I know it's been a couple months
Since I've reached out and said hello

now this was something that shocked fredo, appart from the fact it is his first time hearing cale singing

I bet You're wondering Why I keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things

it really doesn't sound like him but he always have his stoic face so it's probably true

When I should be
Living life and soaking up the memories

cale really should cherish the memories with his family but the meeting with lee so hyuk is something he want to have in this world unfortunately he needs help help from GoD

I know I've been selfish, I have
No excuse to give you, it's true

he really is a selfish person that why he ask him help as fast as possible

fredo still don't understand why he talks to the GoD, but the smile on cale henituse face let him know his scamming a god

Hanging by a thread's how I live

how he live? by a thread? fredo suddenly recall what eruhaben had say

I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable Living in my agony,

he lives in the agony of the memory, he want to forget and not at the same time, afraid of what could happened if he doesn't remember

fredo is sure that it isn't healthy but beacrox and ron always make sure cale have the healthiest environment, his experience tell him it's psychological, a problem with the mind.

he can't help the pang in his chest knowing it

watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

he noticed at some point, even him a dense and oblivious person had noticed

That that's the furthest thing from how I Feel, but I'm too scared to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

scared of what? the truth?..

.. oh he talked about everyone impressions of him, is this what scares him?

The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy Yeah, been this way so long

he doesn't know how he is when he is happy? when was the last time he been aware of it?

It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed

depression... he is aware of it and it feels normal for him, how long have this going on?

I got some issues that I won't address
I got some baggage I ain't opened yet I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can't forget

fredo feel like he been hit by something powerful, because hearing cale, his son, say that, admitted it is painful

I got some calls I been avoiding
Some family members I don't really connect with Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip

in the end he is just a child that grew mature far to quickly

Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with,

cale don't why but he started to say everything to this bastard, who made some comments during his rant some times an apology was written

but his heart seems a little lighter, less heavy

yes I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold

fredo feel like he will hold his son hand whenever he seems down if silent support work he will suggest it to the others

Losing hope, headed down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

his self-esteem was always down but looking at the moment it feels like a auto made protection from something

and fredo doesn't like it

Go up in flames acting, like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully
That that's the furthest thing from how I Feel , but I'm too scared to open up and ask ya

once again he is scared but of what? who?

To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy

cale really don't know but right now he can't help get startled by a vampire who call himself his father, suddenly hug him

"let's go my child i have a few restaurant to show you"
fredo who was distracting him seems full of mischief but at that moment cale didn't want to let go of this hug

if he had fallen asleep inside the arms of fredo, he wasn't told anything
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Tommee Profitt / Nate Feuerstein
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