Broken lies

Chapter 1

Hey I'm Marci I'm 16 and I'm homeschooled well not really homeschooled because my parents don't really care but I'm home

My mom never let me go to school with other kids because of my disability but my dad is trying to fix me

It hasn't worked out my brain just doesn't seem to understand that there helping me I have Dpd that's the short version of it but it's dependent personality disorder

We found out when I was 5 I was just starting school and I had a very bad reaction I don't remember much from it but my dad wasn't happy about it and I've been homeschooled ever since

My parents tried paying doctors to fix me but it never worked and they didn't want to waste any more money so I've been home mom doesn't really like being around me anymore and I was really sad but than dad corrected me and locked me in the basement

I cried and cried but she didn't come to get me she just left me I was in the basement for 3 days before I was let out by dad and he told me that mom left and when she returned I was to leave her alone

I nodded my head and followed dad I didn't like being alone after a few days when mom came back I ran to her but then remembered I was spoused to stay away

I was doing really good until dad had to leave for work I tried to follow him and was met with the back of his hand against my cheek it hurt a lot but I wiped my tears and still went after him but mom stopped me

She threw me down in the basement again I wanted dad to save me but he never came ,I was down in the dark for 4 nights crying at the door when it was opened by dad I smiled and went to go hug him

And I guess I did it to tight because he pushed me and the door to the basement was still opened so I fell down the stairs my arm and head were hurting bad but I still got up to go towards him

He grabbed my hair and since my head was already hurting I screamed he dragged me to the shed in our backyard and threw me in there I tired to run to the door but he closed and locked it

I sat by the door for hours scratching to be let out my finger were red and some blood was on them I looked around the shed and seen someone made a home here

Under some wood there was a little white kitten he was so pretty and I was so happy the little thing opened his eyes and seen me and purred

I started laughing and picked him up he was all alone but now he had a friend and I had my first ever friend
Later on the shed opened and in walked dad I hid the kitten under my shirt and put my head down

He pushed me out the shed and brought me to my room and locked the door I was sad but as soon as he was gone I took the kitten out I put him on the floor and he crawled into my lap

I felt needed by someone somebody was dependent on me and I was going to do everything I could to make sure he never felt alone

I went to the bathroom and turned on the water to wash him after he was clean and dry I went back to my room I was thinking of names for him when my door opened

I looked up and seen dad I smiled at him but he ignore it and told me I have 3 minutes to grab what I needed from the kitchen before I have to come back to my room

I ran down the stairs and grabbed a bowl and chicken and water I wasn't able to grab anything else because I was told my minutes were up

I went back to my room and put the dish down I put water in it and the kitten walked over and started drinking
I looked down at my chicken and realized my kitten needed to eat more than me so I ripped it into tiny pieces and fed him

As soon as he was full he sat himself on my lap and went to sleep I looked at the little bit of chicken left as my stomach growled I decided I should eat the rest it wasn't a lot but my kitten mattered more

I drank the rest of the water and pet my kitten while thinking of names for him he was pure white and I didn't know very many white things so I decided on my favourite thing

Bread his new name is bread and I'll never leave his side a few weeks went by and I only ever talked to bread he knew everything about me and he always listened whenever I would get punished he was there to help me

One night was really bad though I think I scared him because he hid when dad came into my room and started hitting me I made the mistake of putting my hands up to protect my face

And dad beat me like never before my eye was blue and red I couldn't see very well out of it but I said I was sorry I didn't know what I did wrong but I knew it was my fault

Later on in the night when I was talking with bread mom walked in our room and seen my face she laughed and I love her laugh so I started laughing with her but it was the wrong thing to do she grabbed me and threw me into the wall I hit my head pretty hard

She started kicking me in my stomach and when she she seen I wasn't making anymore noise she stopped

I was happy she stopped because she was scaring bread he hid under the bed the whole time she looked at my door and seen dad standing there than looked back at me and spat on me

I frowned but didn't say anything I just looked at bread under my bed the poor kitten was looking so scared I just waited until they left and when they did I crawled over to him

He came out from under the bed and went in my lap I smiled at him and kissed his nose I realized the only one who likes being around me is bread and maybe he doesn't when I get in trouble he hides because he knows I deserve it

I sat him on the floor and cried I told him if he wanted to leave me that's fine and it is I'd miss him but when I get better maybe he'll come back to me

He just crawled into my lap and slept