𝗛𝗢𝗢𝗗𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 𝗖𝗥𝗜𝗦𝗜𝗦 | 𝗗𝗗 𝗢𝗦𝗔𝗠𝗔

twenty two.

HOODLIFE CRISIS. | ANJELIA'S POV
DATE | TIME : SUNDAY,
OCTOBER 13th 2022 | 11:12 AM.
LOCATION : CYPRESS CEMETERY, BROOKLYN.

NOTI THROWS THE CAR IN PARK, sighing heavily. i swallow heavily, looking around anxiously. the car is eerily quiet, it sounds sad.. if that was even possible. i watch as my mom's car pulls up in the parking lot next to my cousin's car.

i see dd looking at me through the side mirror. "you ready, mama?" his voice is gentle but raspy, i make eye contact with him and shake my head. "i'm scared." i glance at noti, the frown on his face makes me look away quickly.

"it's okay to cry, anj." i feel him looking at me, but i don't look back. i feel a warm hand on my arm, rubbing gently. "he wouldn't want me to." i mumble, looking down at my white nails, playing with my rings timidly. dd starts to speak but his words are cut short by the sound of acrylic nails tapping on the passenger side window.

i look up seeing my mom holding anaya on her hip, "we gotta go in now." i hear her say through the door, i nod slowly before opening the door and stepping out of the car.

"i want bubba!" i hear my little sister cry from my step mother's car, screaming loudly. my frown deepens, and i feel david's hand on the small of my back. "ariyani what happen?" i ask as i grab dd's hand in mine, walking over to her car. "Ay ella te quiere. toma janae rose, go!" she huffs in frustration, pulling her out of her booster seat and setting her on the floor before slamming the car door and walking into the cemetery with my parents.

("she wants you. here janae rose, go!")

janae runs over to dd and i, hands immediately grabbing at my essentials hoodie and tugging it down. "nani, relax please." i give her a look and she sniffles, staring up at me with the biggest wet eyes. "you're okay, breathe." she nods, her breath skipping a couple times as she inhales deeply.

i lean down and pick her up with my free hand, following noti as walks ahead of dd and me. "why you was cryin?" david looks at my sister, his own free hand digging into his pocket and giving her a tissue. "cause i'm sad!" nani whines slightly, a few more tears falling down her face as she fists at her eyes.

"why you sad? what happened?" i ask her, trying to distract myself so my hands dont start shaking. she looks at me, squinting her eyes slightly. "i miss adonis." she says quietly, looking down at her hands as she rips at the tissue. my breath catches and i go quiet.

dd hums, squeezing my hand a few times. "he misses you too, don't cry nani." she looks up at him, her lips pulled into a deep frown. "i miss him too, but you gotta be strong for him baby." i squeeze her body closer to mine, leaning down to kiss at her cheek.

a loud gasp breaks my attention from my sister to the group ahead of us, i see my mom clutching her chest tightly. my eyes dart quickly between everyone and i pick up my pace, it only takes a few more steps to see what they see. "what the fuck is this???" my father's voice is angry, and i hear yaya start crying loudly.

my brother's headstone is not up straight like it should be, rather leaning back far, there's cracks and chips in the stone, flowers ripped out from the ground, the decorations are all broken, and theres red shit that looks like it was poured on top that covers his entire name.

i almost fall back, my grip on janae loosens and i feel bile rise in my throat. the first time i see my brother's headstone and it's completely defamed.

i feel my body start vibrating, anger immediately taking over my senses. before i can even react, i feel the baby being taken out of my hands. my eyes go straight to my dad, who's already looking at me and dd. i swallow thickly, slowly turning my head to look at the boy next to me. he looks disgusted and almost as angry as i feel, his nose flared and brows furrowed tightly.

"mami va a la casa con ariyani." i give her a look, she has tears streaming down her face as she nods, looking between me, my dad, dd, and noti. "ve y ocúpate de lo que tienes que hacer." my step mom speaks, putting her hand on my moms arm.

("mami go to the house with ariyani." "you go take care of what you have to")

in five minutes i'm in the back seat of noti's car, my dad in the passenger seat, and david sitting next to me.nod.

&&.    JINX'S NOTES !
i had a little bit of an inspiration so here we goooo

i made this book a year ago at this point, and it's not finished yet so ima try to finish it before the year ends ya i promiseeee. Cause im tryna start the second book by mine and notti birthday, so we will see thats the goal 😚

I love yaaaa

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❪ written:  november 5, 2023. ❫
❪ published:  november 6, 2023. ❫       ❪ word count:  924. ❫

E4N💙. LLE💙.
FOREVER NOTTI'S WORLD.
EVERYTHING FOR EDOT.