Secret Love - A Phanfiction

Hey guys! So I started this before, but I kind of ended it before I carried it on. Well, now it's back! Because I feel more into writing this story. Please give me feedback, I have a few phanfics on the go atm I want to see which you guys prefer reading! - Linda

~Dan POV~

It was early morning and I had just woken up. BANG. I heard a loud sound come from what sounded like the kitchen. My first reaction was to jump up out of my bed and go see what it was. Luckily, it was just Phil. He dropped another cereal bowl again, he always experimented with new cereals and often ended up dropping the bowls.

“You scared the life out of me again Phil!” I chuckled, as I walked with a tired eye through to the kitchen.

It seemed I scared him too.

“Oh wow I didn’t see you there” he said as he jumped at my words, and a little worried smile looking at the bowl and then back at me

He turned around and walked to the storage closet where we kept the pan and brush so he could clear up the mess. As he slowly walked I happened to catch a glimpse of his bum, I quite like the sight of it, in them skinny jeans at least. I’d never get the chance to find out if I liked it any other way.

I’d always questioned my sexuality but ever since I moved in with Phil, I’ve started to realise that maybe I liked guys, I liked Phil anyway, I loved Phil. A lot. But he had a girlfriend so I always tried to convince myself otherwise, then he’d go be all cute and say something, or I’d catch a glimpse of his deep sea blue eyes and it’d send me day dreaming again. I wish he felt the way I did.

~Phil POV~

I hated how clumsy I was, but luckily for me I lived with Dan who just laughed it off. I must have dropped at least 3 of his breakfast bowls now.

After cleaning up the bowl I sat down by a tired Dan on the sofa, who was watching This Morning, a programme on Itv.

“So, meeting up with Lara today?” He mumbled as he was in mid yawn.

Lara was my girlfriend, and we’d been dating for 3 months now. She wanted to get pretty serious but there was something holding me back, something

“No, she’s with her parents today Dan you muppet” I said giggling, as he’d already asked the night before.

Dan re-positioned himself on the sofa, and leaned his head closer to mine. He was in a trance at the TV, and I couldn’t help noticed how beautiful his eyes were. He caught me staring at him and he smiled. I got butterflies in my stomach and shuffled closer to Dan.

“I’m so glad we are friends” I said, in a happy tone.

Dan looked at me and nodded.

“Friends... forever” he proceeded to say.

I wish he felt the way I did.  

~A few weeks later~

~Phil POV~

My eyes were dreary, damp and sore from the tears. I and Lara had split up. She purposed we moved into a flat together and i flipped. I told her I didn’t love her which felt like a huge relief for me because, I don’t know if I did. As I lay in my bed, half asleep I hear a tap on the door.

“knock knock” It was Dan.

He opened the door slowly with a bowl of cereal and he placed it on the bedside table

“Look, Phil, I’m sorry about you and Lara”

I wasn’t as sad as I made out to be, it was an act. The feel of Dan’s reassuring hand on mine made a chill go up my spine, and I let out a smile

“Thanks Dan, you’re a really good friend to me”

Dan sat by me on the bed as I picked up the bowl of cereal just beginning to eat it, usually I’d hate eating infront of people, but with Dan it felt okay.

“You know, I wasn’t really feeling it Dan, I don’t know, I have messed up feelings I can’t explain” I blurted out.

“I kind of like this other person” I also blurted out.

I turned to see the reaction on Dan’s face. He placed his hand on my thigh, I liked it. What he didn’t know was the person I was talking about was him, kind of.

“Who’s this person aye Phil?” He said as he nudged me, still with his hand on my thigh.

One part wanted me to tell him, wishing when I did so we’d hug tightly, and lock our lips together as I desired for so long. I knew what I wanted now, it was Dan. But Dan wasn’t into me, I could tell

“Oh it doesn’t matter really” I sighed.

~Dan POV~

YES! Phil and Lara NO MORE! I screamed in my head with happiness. As harsh as it sounds, I wanted Phil to be single, I know he’d never be mine, but the thought of him with someone else but me taunted me. When I asked him who he liked, I wanted him to grab my face and whisper in my ear ‘you Dan, you’, but he didn’t. Of course he didn’t.

“Look Phil, there’s something I have to tell you” my somewhat happy mood sunk and Phil stared me in the eye

“What is it Dan, you can tell me anything” he said, as he shuffled closer to me

“I-I think I... I like you Phil” I let it slip out my mouth. I did it. What the hell was I thinking

“I like you too Dan, friends forever remember”

Oh boy,  was I being friend zoned? I let my thoughts wonder far too in an awkward silence, much before Phil opened his mouth again, this time he spoke much more quieter

“How do you mean, like me?” his eyes became seductive, and we stared at each other with only lust in our eyes, I began to move in for a kiss, my eyes closed, I placed my rouge lips onto Phil’s. I thought he’d hit me away or something, but he kissed back. Oh yes. Oh yes is this really happening. Just before I could think, me and Phil were making out, our lips locked together. My tongue slowing licking on his lips before he gave in, opening his mouth wider for entrance. Our tongues also locked together and before I knew it I was on top of Phil brushing my hands through his soft, black hair as we made out on his bed. I began to unbutton Phil’s shirt just as an tense, uneasy feeling came in Phil’s body, and he shoved me off him.

“NO DAN. I’M STRAIGHT” He yelled with anger

“But, but it felt so right” I questioned, as he was pacing the room confused

“Look I’m sorry for leading you on okay, I’m not gay Dan, I just broke up with a girl. I’m sorry. I’m confused.”

Phil walked out and closed the door as calmingly as possible

That kiss just confirmed my feelings for Phil, it felt so right. I wish he felt the way I did, maybe he does, but I doubt it. I really do.