I think
I'm thinking about moving ,why ?
I don't know , things around me have been so different
Right now, after all
I guess I'm a little bit stronger but I don't forget my weakness
Inside I'm empty, it hurts but I'm alright
Everybody wants me to be something
That's the thing they teach us since we were just naïve children
We would like to do all the things we want to
But we can't cause we have to appear as the one they want us to be
Part 2:
We can just say and pretend that we are over them
But the truth is that we are just not realizing
How much we are overwhelmed
If we could just have the time to be honest for once they are people whom won't understand
People whom will hate use but that will be alright
We need that time and that space where we could be just ourselves and enjoy the life
We need that time and space where nobody can judge us , a feel free to be us
Playing a role since I was born and did it so many times that i don't notice when I do it now
For real , sometimes I do me and feel free to be me but people don't understand cause I don't know if I'm the only one who's that complicated at the same time for the others and for me , my own mind has some unknown part that I want to explore and somehow I can't reach them , scared? Lazy? Incapable?
I can't tell why , things have just been so different around me so I decided to move
God I need to move
Part 3:
Slowly I'm moving into my brain's non accessible places first my anxiety
Constantly around me , suffocating me
No matter how deep I bury it it's constantly follows me like a ghost I think a lot of people feel the same , used to hear the word anxiety so many times that it even became omnipresent like damn
Seconde my loneliness, it isn't really the same as the original description of the word so I think I better say modern loneliness , we all feel it people have been wondering why other are all the time on their phones while not realizing they do the same , we are all communicating through the internet sometimes also in real life we can pretend it's okay but inside we all know that internet it's just virtual thing and not real as real the truth is I've been watching others on their phones while trying to leave mine a moment and it hurts me when I realize that I've been there but I will never really show them what I'm really feeling inside , I've be also asked why I'm always daydreaming, I do that because reality isn't what I really expected and everybody do the same let's be honest it's not that we prefer dreaming instead of doing , it's just that in my case my inspiration comes from that my happiness comes from that...I dream yes but I only lull the reality , life has that habit of making you feel you're not where you should really be and if it happens it will just be for a short time
Always trying to take you down reality it's just weird but it's the way it is tho
Part 4:
To be honest I don't think too much it's just that I don't understand somethings just appears sometimes in my mind it's not that I'm somehow crazy lol , It just that before it was just sometimes and now it's every time I can't even stay one hour without thinking about something , I think some people can be or feel the same I don't really know it's just that our generation it's at the same time an amazing one but our lives has been different in so many ways we all lived or had some traumatic episodes in our lives that doesn't live us without thoughts and our future too we are overflowed with the vision of people of our age having a successful life this is just horrible for our mind state tho it motivate us but it also make us think more or focalise about the things that ain't working well in our lives hum I'm thinking too much lol
And yes here I am thinking again this is so annoying and at the same time feels so fucking great
When I say great i mean weird at the same time
Once a friend of mine told that I shouldn't be thinking that much , he told me that I'm still young so it doesn't really matter if you make some mistakes
