The Love Of Homophobic (BXB)

Chapter 9

Homophobic

“Do you like me?” natatawa niyang tanong ngunit ang mata ay puno ng pagka-disgusto.

If a stare can kill, I’ll be dead by now.

Agad akong umiling. “N-No! Never!” I answered immediately, still trying to shove his hand away from my jaw.

I never planned to hide my feelings from him if he’s the one who will ask that question. But after all the hell I’ve experienced from him? I’d better keep it.

Lalong dumilim ang mata niya at nanlaki ang mata ko nang nilapit niya ang mukha niya sa akin. Our noses are almost touching. I can feel his warm breath on my face. I can smell him, and I almost shiver from the thought that he’s so near to me.

Kumalma ka, Grey, or else you’ll really be dead.

“Really? Then why is your face so red right now? Why are you shaking? ”

Bakit ba ang dami niyang tanong? Last time I checked, wala naman siyang paki sa akin.

“Because you’re scaring me, jerk! ” I hissed and, with my full force, pushed him away from me. 

Never mind his anger; my feelings should not be revealed.

Agad akong tumayo at mabilis na lumayo sa kaniya. I guess I’ll be just checking my needed references online. I need to get out of here. I need to get away.

Akala ko ay hahayaan niya na ako ngunit napangiwi ako nang maramdaman ang kaniyang mariin na paghawak sa braso ko at ang paghila sa akin pabalik sa kaniya.

“Aww!” I grunted and closed my eyes because of the pain. Tumama ng malakas ang likod ko sa malamig na pader nang ihampas niya ako doon.

When I opened my eyes, I almost melted under his burning eyes. His knee was in between my legs while his hands were on my arms, pinning it harshly on my side. Parang mababali ang buto ko. Gusto kong sumigaw, humingi ng tulong pero ayaw ko ng skandalo. Plus, the fact that we’re at the library. Ayokong magkaroon ng bad record dito.

“Who are you to call me a jerk? " he berated as he leans closer to me. Naamoy ko ang pabango niya at parang gusto ko na lang ubusin ang amoy niya. It’s addicting.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako maaga mamamatay, kung sa pang-aabuso niya sa akin o sa rason na sobrang lapit niya sa ‘kin ngayon. 

I feel like fainting, and I don’t know if it’s from the pain or because of my heart that’s being jackhammered by now.

And I just want to slap my delusional self. Hello, Grey? Can’t you see you’re on the brink of your death right now?

“Because you are one. Hindi ko alam kung bakit galit na galit ka sa akin. And as far as I remember, I didn’t do anything to you.” mariin kong sinabi at galit siyang tinignan sa mata.

I might look so stupid right now, glaring at him. I don’t even know if I managed to look mad, because never in my life have I become so furious like this.

And I’m not sure if I’m really angry or just trying to scare Zeus with my anger to escape this situation.

Which I know, will never happen.

Nakita ko ang gulat sa mata niya sa biglang outburst ko. I saw a glimpse of amusement in his eyes, but it was covered immediately with rage.

I gasped when his hand went into my neck, and raspy breaths escaped my throat when I felt his fingers pressing my throat.

“You’re that dumb you don’t know the obvious answer? " he said as he scanned my face, from my eyes, down to my nose and to my lips. Tumingin siya muli sa mata ko at sumeryoso, “Because I hate you. Your whole existence and every person who has the same gender as you. You all disgust me," he remarked as I heard my heart breaking into pieces and my tears starting to fall.