How Could You? (Souyo)

Delusion

First and last kiss with him, huh...?

I lean back against the door of the fridge, my hands clasped behind my back.

I miss it.

I miss him.

But I've fucked this up for good now. No more secrets; no more lies.

He knows the truth. He just doesn't like it.

...And that's just who he is, I guess.

I can't force him to see light. And I can't force myself to hide away again.

Maybe it's better this way.

I mean, Yosuke's true colors, right?

Truth be told, I always knew what his reaction would be like. But... I dunno. I just tried to have hope.

I bite my lip, pulling out my cell.

Just past 11am. 4th period.

I swallow hard.

Lunch is next, right? Meaning... I could text him then. Or... maybe I could just do it now.

I hold down the voice recorder button, my heart racing.

"H-hey, Yosuke... Um, it's just... just me... Y-you know...?" I cringe at myself, rubbing my forehead. "Uh, anyways... I just wanted to apologize for what happened yesterday. I know it was bad timing, but... I enjoyed it." I hold my breath. "A-and before you jump to conclusions, I didn't... do it because I thought you were an easy target, or anything. I did it because... I truly have feelings for you, Yosuke. And maybe I've messed up any chance we could have had to be together, but... I love you either way."

I blink a couple of times, watching as the message sends.

Oh, fuck...

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Yosuke's POV:

I feel my cell buzz in my pocket. Which is weird, because I usually receive spam after school hours.

I lean down on the desk, pulling my phone out beneath the table.

Yu?

Oh, shit...

God, what does he want!?

To make me feel guilty about it? To make me the bad guy!?

I bite my tongue.

I shouldn't think this way.

But, still... He messaged me. That means... he has hope, right?

Hope that we can just... forget about what happened... Play it off as some sort of bad dream.

I really don't want to lose him.

Right now, he's... he's confused. But I'll help him. I'll fix him. I'll return him back to normal. I know he'll listen to me.

I slide my headphones up my head while Sensei looks away. I reach for the play button, when the message suddenly disappears.

Huh?

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Yu's POV:

No way. Too damn risky.

I can't do this. I can't go past the point of no return.

I power off my phone before he can reply.

I have to stop this... I have to stop fantasizing about him.

He's my friend... Maybe?

Jesus... If I've fucked this up... I'll never forgive myself.