Her

Bitter Sweet

"Even little actions make big difference and even little words can do big damage."

This is something I had learnt hard way. Very hard way.

Trust.. It takes so much to trust someone yet it just takes one wrong move to break it beyond repair. It was Her who choose to trust me. To share Her little bits of life with me making me a small part of her wonderful life and so as to be wonderful part of my small life.

Every day she would tell me of all the happy moments of her day with shine in her eyes ,and every day she would tell me of her greys with long sighs.

Sometimes the greys were so dark she wouldn't really share it but looking at her I could tell behind that opaque glass smile there were crystal clear tear in her eyes. But she seem to have swore to never let a tear leave her edges of eye and roll down her cheek.

The more I spend time with her the more I wish I had met her sooner.

But one day I shared something of her which she confide to me with great trust.

That one day,that one moment,those few words I regret till today. Trust wasn't the only thing I broke that day. I broke her will to trust anyone again. I broke her heart. I broke Her.

When I realized what I have done it was too late for anything.

I wanted to apologize to her and beg for forgiveness. But even standing next to her was difficult. She did her work with same compassion and undisturbed mind. But Inside I know she numb and disappointed with me.

There wasn't a single day when she left for the day without making sure I was ok. Even when on grey days she would put on her bright smile as if she knew her smile really makes my day and give me strength to handle any dark nights.

But now I have lost that smile. Lost my lunch partner. Even her eyes would deny to see towards me.

PS: I'm really sorry for hurting. This chapter is not make you upset but tell you I know what I did and that I know it has been really hard on you.

PPS: Thank you for everything.

To Her.