Roads And Maps (redo)

Swarming

Just wanted to be careful and put a little warning in the beginning of this.
-Includes panic attacks, guilt, anxiety

Also, to just get rid of any confusion, with the panic attack, the thoughts of the character aren't  finished and they're frantic. So my writing looks unfinished. Sentences look unfinished. For example: " I need
What is this?
I need sit down. No I"

Mini's POV

I watched as Aiden eased Aru onto the ground, then brushed hair away from her face.

"Shah?" he asked gently.

"How could I let this happen?" Kara panicked, pacing back and forth.

"You didn't do anything wrong. None of us did," Brynne said.

"Yes, we did," I mumbled.

Brynne's head snapped toward mine. "Excuse me?"

"We did do something wrong. We sent Rudy away."

"He's just a kid who doesn't know any better-"

"We're all just kids. What makes us different from him? Hmm? We have magical weapons and he doesn't? Big deal. We didn't have those a couple years ago. We're pandavas. Is that what sets us apart?" I asked.

"Mini-"

"It's not! That doesn't set us apart because Aiden and Kara are right there without a fancy title! So why did we send him away?"

Brynne shrugged. "I can't tell you why, Mini, but we did. That's on us."

"Yeah, it is. He could be helping us right now, but he isn't because he isn't here."

Rudy ran in. "I'm here! No need to panic!"

"Good to have you back, Rudy." Kara smiled.

My head snapped to him. His eyes were on Kara. Why did that hurt so much?

'Now is not the time for jealousy. We need to get Aru back,' Brynne said in our link.

'I'm not jealous.'

'Sure.'

I looked away and glanced at Aru. She was still there on the ground, not a single movement to be seen.

I know what to do in this situation. At least, I should. You... uh, check for vitals, right? Is this when you elevate their feet? What's happening?

C'mon, Mini. Think. You know what to do. Just tell them! Spit it out. You can do it. Just say something!!

I felt their eyes on me. I felt their presence. I felt their anxiety, along with mine. My hands begin to fidget.

'I know this whole Aru disappearing thing was hard on you especially, Mini. But we just got her back. We can't lose her now. You gotta help us. Please,' Brynne rang in again.

I have to help. I can't let them down. Not now. They need- I can't- No. Not now. Please.

Breathe in... breathe out. Breathe in... breathe out.

My heart is pounding. I need to go.

I started to back away, but bumped into someone. Who did I- not important. No, I should apologize, right?

Breathe in... breathe out. Breathe in... breathe out.

I can't. I feel as though my soul is disconnecting from my body, my eyes becoming a window for passersby to look out of. Is this room getting smaller or am I-