The Story Of Bunny And Fox

Vol 3 - Week 8 (2)

He licks his lips gently.

"If I accept your confession, I will have to throw away my duty and the life I have lived."

Karlyle knows. Ordinary people can just date, they don't have to assume those things. They can just do what their heart tells them, date then break up. But Karlyle is not an ordinary man. And he can't become such a person.

"Until doing that... enough to accept you..."

That is the reality. As he speaks, Karlyle cannot imagine himself out of the duty. Like there is a rope around his neck, even if the leash is released, Karlyle will still not run away. Because that is how he has been raised all his life. So pathetic.

"Mr. Jones's heart for me... I don't think it's that deep."

Karlyle doesn't think he is worthy enough for Ash to do so. When life becomes tiring, will that person be swayed? Getting in trouble with Kyle, then becoming the sex partner of someone like Karlyle... Ash must have suffered a lot. Karlyle is reminded of how selfish his behavior was when he tried to continue the relationship with Ash. Even if it continues, his grandfather...

"It is not."

However, Ash does not back down this time. His unshakable voice is still kind and lovely. Karlyle finally let out a low laugh on his expressionless face.

"Is that so?"

"Yes. I know today is an important day. I've come late. I'm bothering Karlyle, too. But Karlyle..."

Raising his eyebrows, Ash asks.

"Are you happy?"

Karlyle is silent.

"I am not happy. I'm not happy without Karlyle. I came here because I thought if I missed Karlyle like this, if I were more late, I would regret it for the rest of my life."

But people cannot always be happy. Just like you can't have everything, happiness is the same.

"People cannot have everything."

"But I think we have to do our best to get the most precious thing."

Ash says firmly. The man shines even in these moments. Karlyle suddenly realizes why he has no choice but to accept Ash's love. Ash is a beautiful person.

"Do you think I will still be your most precious person even after years?"

Ash doesn't know how lacking and insufficient Karlyle is. Ash doesn't know him, as well as he doesn't know Ash. Getting to know each other then looking at his lacking, all he could think of is that Ash will get tired of him. Karlyle is still unsure. Whether Ash will stay with him for the rest of his life.

He knows. How absurd this is. They haven't even promised to get married, how can they assume they'd be together forever even before starting to date? This is a little too creepy. He knows. Of course he knows... but without this certainty, he can't accept Ash.

"Yes, Karlyle."

Ash answers firmly. But Karlyle shakes his head. Slowly, he stands up from the sofa and avoids Ash's eyes.

"It's hard to believe."

"How can I make you trust me?"

He wishes he knew the answer.

"I don't know"

Karlyle admits. His heart is too heavy. He hates himself for not being able to simply say that he likes or doesn't like. So tired.

"There are people waiting for me. I've been away for quite a while, so I have to go back. About you helping me..."

After a brief silence, Karlyle expresses his gratitude.