we make a eye contact , something that we've never done when we were together as partners, his eyes are beautiful and tells something beautiful about his dark eyes—something I cannot read , whether understand, why does my heart bump everytime I look at him? What is this feeling im experiencing right now —do I really hate him or pretending to be ? I cough again in a strempt to stop this silliness.
Heldan doesn't deserve my heart, and why am I so concerned about these? Why is these happening now, no I don't want to break their relation ship, he is now dating the blonde girl and I don't have to destroy that.
We sit in the settee together, I desperately want to ask him these if it is not illegal to him .there are so many questions that I want to ask him, I want to know him more, I want to know his darkest secretes and his dreams in future.
I want to know everything.
To me heldan is like a closed book. We never shared a honest bond but it was never real, it was full of——— misunderstanding , empty promise and lack of communication.
"Why you looking at me like that."
"Let's play a truth or dare."
"Oh my god why that."
"Because I like it, it's kinda like a grown ups game."
A blink of my eye leave him in awe .
He sighs and says "Okay you first."
"Heldan truth or dare?"
"Truth." just what I wanted.
"Did you ever loved me?" his delighted face utterance slowly evaporated.
He takes a moment before he can answer a "No."
"No?"
"Yes, now baby girl truth or dare?"
"Truth."
"Did you fall in love with me?"
Should I say yes or no?
Saying yes will make him feel like he can play any girl and have her fall for him at any time he want, if I say no then why did I fall in love with him and why am I mad at him that he played with my feelings?and ran away ?
"Yes." my tears threatens to come out, only a bit of glass of tears reveal themselve to heldan.
No do not cry do not dare cry.
"My turn now truth or dare?"
"Truth again."
"Is that blonde girl from the hospital your girlfriend ?"
He sighs before he leaves an answer "Yes."
"Do you love her."
"I surely do love her."
my heart is completely unsteady, I feel like he did not take a moment of his spare time to even think about my feelings, his words are vicious.
He is still the same heldan I know, he made me fall in love with him over a bet , played with my feelings, ran away and left me bare the upshots.
"okay that's awesome right, you won love again and I'm a loser." my tears jog down my cheeks.
He extend his hand to my shoulder trying to comfort me "No please don't I'm okay."
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I feel sick of men sometimes. . .if I knew him better I wouldn't be in this situation, sometimes I ask myself why did I ask him all the negativity that is always on my mind? I hate him so much!
I hate him with all of my heart and with everything of me.
I scroll down trough my phone and look at the pictures of my mom and little sir on the picture, he is so adorable, I smile to myself as I scroll to more pictures of sir, from his first birthday and second —he is growing up so fast, mom is really raising him well. I have never seeing my mom this happy before after sir came into our family.
"You already asleep?" heldan speaks out, standing on my door, I quickly turn my phone off and peek over him from the door.
It's so awkward that I am staring at someone whom I barely want to see right now _what it is that he wants now?
"not really." now why did I say that?
"Well I can put you back to sleep." huh?
"Really it's not a big deal, I'm a big girl."
"Big girls too have to be taken care of."
he shrugs his shoulders and sit on the bed next to me ——everytime I see him, feel him next to me I start to remember the first night of the two of us, so young and innocent and did not know what we were doing, I still remember that terrible kiss we had on that night, I want to forget it because it is so embarrassing even now.
"Hannah you know I..."
"No don't say it, I know you meant it." I tell him, I know that he feels bad for whatever he said earlier but that won't change anything. I am so hurt by him.
"But I loved you."
"I don't believe that."
"Why not? Hannah what wrong did I do to you that is so difficult for you to forgive me?"
Why is he acting like he doesn't know?
He knows what he did to me.
And I am not going to forgive him for that.
"You know what, I don't want to argue with you right now."
"So you saying we shouldn't speak about it? So how am I going to solve matters with you?"
"Good night heldan."
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RomanceA struggling 21-year-old young woman who got in a car accident while coming from college back to her apartment got her leg injured and is unable to walk on her own. But her doctor is more than her doctor --when she sees Heldan she starts to remember...
