The past between us ||Sim Jake✔️

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"So, your father is really marrying Seoyun's sister, huh?" Hyejun asked.

"Yeah." I sighed.

"That sucks."

"Yeah."

We were both currently in my room lying on my bed.

I turned my head to look at her. I still couldn't get over her transformation. She was still beautiful, but really different from the friend I'd left three years ago.

"So, what happened?"

I rolled my eyes at her fake confused expression and threw a pillow at her.

"You know what I mean Hyejun."

She sighed. "Life just started to plummet after you left, for all of us I guess."

"What happened between you and Niki? You wouldn't shut up about him three years ago and now you haven't even mentioned him once." I asked her gently.

Her expression saddened.

"He broke up with me the day before he left for Busan, said he couldn't manage a long-distance relationship. What we had in high-school was good but I guess I always knew in my heart that it wouldn't last no matter how badly I wanted it to. I don't have any ill feelings towards him, really. I understand that he had big dreams for himself and I couldn't be a part them. He's a good guy, I will never say otherwise. He came back for Jiyeon's funeral and even stayed here for two weeks to comfort me."

I sniffled, "I'm so sorry you went through that. I wish I was here with you Hyejun."

"Do you have any idea why Jiyeon . . .? I couldn't bring myself to finish the sentence.

Hyejun winced.

"When you left, things got really bad. Especially Jake, he was so messed up Eunji, it was like he lost his mind once you were gone. He ended his friendship with Sunghoon, he wouldn't talk to anyone, he started getting involved in dangerous things, bad people. During this time Jiyeon was the only person who had it all together. She was like the glue holding everything together. But one day suddenly, she changed, she stopped being the Jiyeon we all knew and loved, she didn't smile, she rarely even talked. I tried asking her what was wrong but she wouldn't talk to me. And then one day, she was just gone. . ." Hyejun took in a shuddering breath. The tears running down her cheeks matched my own.

"I don't know why she killed herself Eunji. I wish I had known so I could have done something about it. I was here all this time with her and I still couldn't save her, you have no idea how much it kills me every time I think that. Going to her funeral was the hardest thing I have ever done. And Jake. . ."

She wiped her tear stained face with her trembling fingers. "I saw him at the funeral Eunji and the look on his face still haunts me. He wasn't crying. He wasn't talking. I watched him as he stood silently by the open grave. Just as they lowered the casket into the ground his eyes met mine, he was looking at me but he wasn't. I saw no ounce of life in his eyes Eunji. It was like they were burying his soul with Jiyeon too." She shuddered.

I covered my mouth with my hand to muffle my sobs.

At that moment I was feeling all of her pain.