That day.

Part Three.

I look at myself in the mirror, and actually admire myself. "your so gorgeous Mads." says Kayleen. "Thank you...but I don't understand..." I say back. "what do you mean?" said Azul. "well, i don't get why leah... did and said that to me.." I say with tears in my eyes. "trust me Madeleine. They won't care. I promise. Your such a wonderful person and I never got why nobody ever would talk to you. Your so kind hearted and sweet. Your like one of us, nice people. It's better to forget about what happened and move on from it." said Alyssa. "I just want people to recognize me for who i am.. and not what i do." I say back. "If you want that, you have to show those people your story." said Jazmyn. All of us nod in agreement. We then get ready for bed and change into our pjs. I put on a pair of nike pros and a black sweatshirt. I make a tent on April's floor as well as the rest of the girls. "Should we watch a movie?" I say. "YES!" screams April and the rest of the girls. "Ok then, what movie?" I say back chuckling. Hmm, I don't know any good movies" Says all the girls. "OH! THE BLACK PHONE!" I said happily. "What's that?" they all say in confusion. "just watch.." I said with a faded smirk on my face. "ooooohhhhkkkaaayyy...?" said Sienna. "Ready?" I say as I put on the movie. "sure" they all say, scared. "Oh come on it's not even that scary it's more of like a sad movie." I say laughing. After the movie ended, I look around and they are dead asleep. I smile and lay back down. After what felt like 12 seconds, I drifted off to sleep. I wake up and rub my eyes as they adjust to the light. I look around and see that the girls are still sleeping. I grab my phone and check the time 5:21AM. 'oh ok' i say in my head. I get up and grab one of the Forever 21 bags and grab my clothes. I walk outside and look for a bathroom. I find one and change in it. I change into dark blue baggy jeans and a red crop top with a red sweater. I put on my converse and grab a hair brush out of the bag. I brush my hair and do dutch braids again. Once i was done with my hair, I go back to the room and sit on the vanity. "Guys, wake up. we're gonna be late" I say, while texting my mom that i'm going to be out for a few days. They all get up confused. "huh..? Maddy it's a saturday.." Sienna says. "Yeah i know." I say. "then what are we late for?" said Kayleen and Azul. "You'll see, also, pack clothes for 6 days." I say. Last night, I bought tickets to go to Boa Boa. The flight was at 8:30AM. Once they were finished it was about 7:50AM. I rush them Into the car and I drive to the airport. We get off as soon as we arrive. We scan the tickets and go through security. We board on the plane and choose who we sit with. Kayleen and Me, Azul and Sienna, and Jazmyn with Alyssa, April chose to sit alone to have more space. Once we got there, we were so excited. We unloaded are stuff off the plane and checked out. We went to the rental car and drove to our Air bnb. "Woah..." all of us say. It was so big. It had 7 rooms and a pool.   The girls change into swimsuits, but I don't. And well, it's obvious why. I wish i never did that to my body. I just wanted to feel.. well alive. Neither way I don't want anyone to see my body. Especially after what happened. I feel so dirty. I feel like i can't let anyone see or touch my body ever again. No matter how much times i wash my body, I still feel their touch. 'i wish i was dead.' I never want to feel or think how I did That day. I walk to a door that lead to the roof. I got out and sat outside on the roof. I thought and thought and thought. I came up with something. May, Friday 30th 2023 1:00AM. I would simply not feel pain anymore. You'll see why, soon. I hear my name get called millions of times. i climb back inside and see everyone gathered in a circle. We do a group hug, and plan on what we are going to do tomorrow. After we were done, all of girl left, except Azul. "I got you something, so you can empty your feelings, instead of just keeping them bottled up" she said with a warm smile. She pulls out a diary. It's dark green. "It's beautiful.." I say. She hands me it and says "I'm gonna dry up, write all you want." she says. I run to the living room and grab one of the free pens. She sits down and starts writing. "May 18th, 2023. 6:10PM.
My name is Madeleine, here's my story.
May 16th, 2023, I got kidnapped and raped by some boys from my school. They left me outside, naked. I ran home and immediately showered and changed. I scrubbed my body so hard i started bleeding everywhere. I still feel their touch. Ever since that, I've always felt so dirty. While i was in the bathroom, I met some of the most nicest people in my grade and became friends with them. My life has been going good after that. But, that didn't change anything. i still want to die.'
i'll finish tmr or later