That day.

Part one.

I wake up with tears in my eyes. I don't remember what i did yesterday. I scan my room and end up finding pills and blades all bloody. 'oh' i think to myself. I look at my wrists and see lines and shapes all over it. blood dripping down my wrists. I take a look at my thighs, and see the same. I don't know why i'm doing this. Never mind, i know why. My name is Madeleine, i had a best friend named Leah.
She made me feel so happy. Mostly because she was my only friend. I get up and get ready for school. I change into some black flare jeans and a plain grey sweater. Obviously i didn't want anyone to see my cuts. I run downstairs and put on my shoes. i grab a brush and stroke my hair down as i'm walking back upstairs. I do dutch braids on my hair.
I quickly put on a full face of makeup. 'god i wish i was pretty like Leah.' i say to myself. I grab my backpack and walk out the door. 'Please let me get ran over' i think to myself. I wanna disappear so badly.
I enter school and i immediately feel eyes on me. "ew look it's the girl who cuts herself" WHAT. I look around for Leah and i eventually find her. I run to her and push her. "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY TO THEM LEAH." I say to her as i can feel my eyes tearing up.
My voice is all shakey. Leah was the only person who knew about my cutting, ever since she walked in on me at school in the bathrooms. "well..." Leah says. "i just had to. all my life you had been annoying me and being overly clingy to me. You're so ugly and nobody likes you. That's why you cut yourself. because you're so self centered and think that all the boys like you.
I'm glad i walked in on you cutting, because otherwise, i wouldn't have been able to do this." i tilt my head in confusion and she screams "EVERYONE LOOK AT THIS!" i panic. 'oh shit.' Leah grabs my arm and holds it tightly as she pulls my sleeves up. "FUCK YOU" i scream while crying. "SHE CUTS HER SELF!" says Leah. Everyone goes silent. I snatch my arm back and run to the restrooms. I sit in a stall and lock the door. Well, there's nothing else i can do.
I pull out my blade and start cutting. I accidentally cut to deep and i start to see blurry lines and spots. Suddenly, all i see is black. I let my body go. And i feel guilt in me. The fact that i will never forgive myself for ruining my body. That's my fault. I hate myself. I wake up in a dark and black room. 'what the fuck..' i whisper to myself. Suddenly i hear footsteps. I get goosebumps. I hear a door swing open. And it's 3 men. I recognize them. Jace, Chris and Roderick. They are all.... naked. They start coming at me as i scream for help, they put a bag over my head and tape on my mouth. I feel my clothes slipping off.. I cry as i feel something insert into me. i try to wave my arms around so i can punch them. But one of them grabbed my hands. It went on for about 5 hours.
They took off the bag and the tape. i fell to the floor as i couldn't feel my legs. "why would you do this..?" i say crying and trembling. "because you have such a nice body." they all said with a smirk. they grabbed my clothes and threw me outside. I was naked and cold. I ran back home even if i got some dirty looks. The next day i didn't want to go back to school but my mom made me.
I got dressed into a baggy sweater and sweatpants. i didn't feel like doing my hair or makeup. I grab my backpack and put on my shoes. I walk out the door and walk to school. I open the doors and again feel all eyes on me. i heard some whispers which said "omg did you hear he asked Jace Chris and Roderick to fuck her last night? she's such a slut" and way more.
I walk into a classroom which i thought was empty. But then i see Jace, Chris and Roderick looking at me up and down. I run out and go to the bathroom. This time, i didn't cut. I just cried. I cried so hard my tears turned red.

Please comment if i should make a second part!!!🤍