If Only [COMPLETED]

Chapter XIV

We walked in the aisle of the hallway side by side as we roam our eyes around the students. Some are looking our way and greeting us and some are just doing whatever stuffs they doing.

"Freen."

"Hmm?"

"What's the real score between you and that Armstrong girl?" Nam asked making my eyes quickly divert into her as I eyed her confusingly.

"Excuse me what?"

"It's obvious Freen, there is something in the way you look at the girl. Your eyes are specifically glowing when your looking at her and those dull eyes of yours are sparkling like diamonds around her."

I'm feeling nervous with this topic. So I tried to find a way to switch it off.

"Look, let's hurry we don't wanna be late."

"Oh come one Freen. It's obvious that you have something for that girl. Admit it already."

The hell. What would I ever admit when i'm not even having anything for that girl.

"Your just delusional Nam. That's why you easily got hurt because your assumptions is way too over the limit."

"I'm not assuming Freen. I'm stating facts."

"Oh so you think I can't segregate what's a fact from what's an opinion? Nam it's just your opinion that there is something in between the thin lines when there is actually none. Stop pushing things for the both of us. We all know that girl have a boyfriend."

"Okay, fine. But it's my opinion Freen so you should respect it. I know how freaking oblivious you are with your feelings or with someone having feelings about you but I swear when I told you things I know there is really something.  You just don't realize it yet for now"

I rolled my eyes at her as we resume walking. There are still few minutes before our classes will start. But in the back of my mind I was also thinking about what she said. It's right that i'm oblivious about what I feel but I won't admit that this tingling sensation I have for the  Caucasian girl is something romantic. Maybe I am just infatuated and overwhelmed about her because she fulfill the missing piece of my life which is a sister. But I never really long for a sister right?, Or did I?

As we we're in the corner of turning towards the College of arts department. We bump into Rebecca and Non standing face to face near the locker. Non's right arm is leaning over the locker trapping Rebecca in between him as the girl stare at him lovingly. Rebecca look so inlove. She was looking at Non as if her whole world depends on him and rotates only in him. And the longer I stare at them, the more pricking feeling of my heart is there. It was unexplainable. I feel like something inside me is broken, like it was shattered into pieces and cannot be glued back.  In a swift movement. Rebecca's eyes met mine.  And I swear I could clearly see her eyes dilating as she flick her eyes on me.

I rolled my eyes at her as I pulled P'Nam right in front of them before stopping without looking at their direction.

"It's illegal being PDA publicly. As you two are enjoying your cheesy moment someone out there might be suffering with sore eyes." Both of their reactions were shocked as their mouths hang agape. And before they could react, I quickly stride forward leaving the two in daze.

"Did your mom crave for bitter gourd when your were in her womb? Because I swear you sound so bitter a moment ago. Smell so single." Nam teased so I pinch her back making her squirm.

"Ouch!! That's bad Freen."

"Be thankful that's all that you've got. Sometimes I really wanna hug your neck and choke you to death."