Sometimes, life gets really difficult. You just don't know what to do or what to say in some situations. But why? Why is always sadness more existing than hapiness? Why aren't we more happy than being sad? Why is everything going bad after a while? Why do we always pretend like we're happy to make others happy? Why do we always pretend like we're happy just to do not talk about it?
It's been now 2 months since my brother and my father flew to their homeland again. They didn't wanted to See my face, and also didn't even thank Niall because of the money. What assholes.
But I, yeah I finally started to study for the university. Sometimes Sam is coming over, or I am just going to him. But it's always the same: Niall is not letting me go.
Now, we are just laying on a flower field near to Niall's place. I am lying on Niall's chest and he has his arms wrapped around me. But it's not feeling the same. It's feeling different. Since a long time, Niall is not the same. He's always dejected and unsure in every fucking sentence his mouth brings out. Sometimes, he's just for like hours in his work room, doing nothing or just telephoning with a person. When I am asking if something's wrong or not okay, he's just always saying "everything's okay baby, we're just working on a new album and it's very stressful lately". I am not believing him. I know that they already finished song writing months ago. He's lying. Something IS 100% wrong, I know that. But the question is, what is wrong?
'Pretending to be happy is one of the most exhausting things in the world, isn't it?' I looked deep into the sky.
'Why are you saying something like that?' He stuttered.
'You have to hear yourself while speaking. Not believable. I know that something's wrong, and I'm not giving up. I'm scared. Remember when I lost myself? I don't think you unterstand me well.'
'Understand what?'
'I don't think you unterstand how scared I am of losing you.'
'Don't think about it. Just live in this moment.'
'I love you.' I said, looking into his eyes.
He just kissed me.
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