Meant to Be

Tonight was a night I had waited for for weeks on end. The  night of the party. It was a common thing that every few weeks all of  us able and young Na'vi would congregate together in the illuminous  fields, sharing bottles of moonshine and dancing to the music people  were playing for us. Everybody came, all from ages 18 up to 23, in  groups of their friends and mates to enjoy a night for freedom together.  And for others, a whole lot of debauchery.

My best friend Lo'ak  and I had been waiting for this little break, our day already ruined by  yesterdays antics. We had stayed out later than we should have, and  Lo'ak got into a whole lot of trouble for it. As a punishment, he was  forced to go out on a mission and stay by Neteyam's side on watch. Of  course, he couldn't leave it at that though could he. He decided that  instead of going on watch, that he would join the people around him at  grabbing any sort of weaponry that he could. And as a result, Neteyam  followed and got knocked out by nearby openfire.

When they had  returned back to the village they were both seething, Neteyam more than  Lo'ak, and proceeded to take it out on me. That didn't sit well with me.

My  relationship with Neteyam was- grating, to say the least. We used to be  friends, when we were all younger. But when Lo'ak and I reached 15, he  started to resent us. The two of us were prolific troublemakers and got  both ourselves and Neteyam into a fair bit of trouble, the latter doing  his best to stop us as often as he could. But that was futile, if Lo'ak  and I were going to go and do something nobody could stop us. So he  stopped trying, and his relationship with both me and Lo'ak dissipated  instantly.

Earlier on in the evening, he had tried to control  Lo'ak into not drinking, but I was never going to let that happen. He  may have been Lo'ak's older brother by a couple years, but he had no  right to tell him what to do. We were adults now, and I was sick to the  back teeth of him trying to control us constantly. So we drank, making a  show of it in front of Neteyam to prove he couldn't do shit, and like  normal Neteyam watched us with beady eyes, projecting his hatred onto  us.

We didn't particularily care after a while what was going on  around us. All we wanted to do was enjoy our night, and for me, indulge  myself in someone. When the time came, it was only ruined by the guy  bringing up mating with me. An instant mood killer in my opinion. I had  stormed off to locate Lo'ak once more, finding him dancing with a rather  pretty girl who seemed rather into him.

It took a while for Lo'ak  to calm me down, giving me drinks to help get past the simmering anger  that had reverberated through my body endlessly. It didn't help that I  was so pent up, just wanting some meaningless sex to scratch the itch  inside of me that threatened to spill over. But soon, with the help of  the moonshine, I forgot about my problems, delving back into the loud  music as I began to enjoy myself once more.

Before I knew it, at  some point Lo'ak and the girl had disappeared. I was far too happy for  him to be annoyed that he had deserted me, and with the help of the  alcohol I had no issue dancing by myself, swaying my hips and throwing  my hair over my shoulder, letting the music consume me as I felt myself  growing more confident. Perhaps I would get what I wanted tonight after  all.

Until a pair of hands grabbed onto my hips, the person  dancing a little too close behind me for me to feel comfortable anymore.  I turn around to face whoever it was, my tongue poised ready to fire.  You don't touch a girl, you at least speak to her first. That's just  common decency. To my dismay, I'm faced with Atou's sultry smirk, his  eyes dark and threatening.

A little backstory on Atou. I had slept  with him once before, shortly before my 18th birthday. He seemed to be  the kind of guy that would be good in bed, and despite all his flaws he  was still the best guy I'd been with. But he was selfish. Selfish and  arrogant and so full of himself that it made my skin crawl. He too,  brought up mating the day after my birthday, though it was barely a  request. More of a demand. He went on and on about how he was the best  guy to spend the rest of my life with, beacuse he was bulky and  attractive and all the girls wanted him. That earned a hard no from me,  something that he didn't like. He was furious, ready to hit me at the  time but thankfully Jake had called me away before Atou could get  physical. I can still remember the fear in my body as he stood above me,  doing his best to intimidate me, which worked. Since then I had avidly  avoided him, too afraid of what would have happened if I was around him  for too long.