(MTL) Natural Disaster Apocalypse

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Qin Huai didn't refuse either: "Then go to the Maldives first. If it's fun, we can play for a few more days . If it's

not fun, then go to Saipan. Anyway, these two places can get visas on arrival, which is also convenient."

Mu Nan cheered, just at this time When the class bell rang, I happily ran to my classroom with milk tea.

Sitting in front of Qin Huai, Jiang Xuan kept his head down reading the book without turning his head from the beginning to the end, but he listened to their conversation.

He felt that his problems during this time were really big, so big that he couldn't help but start to reflect on when did he start this overly distorted mentality.

After thinking for a long time, he remembered that when he noticed Mu Nan for the first time, he was in the third grade of elementary school, and Mu Nan was just in the first grade. At that time, Qin Huai was already the favorite student of many teachers. He was good-looking and had good grades. He is young but has a stable personality, which is completely different from those little kids who go crazy together after class. Jiang Xuan has always wanted to be friends

with Qin Huai , but Qin Huai doesn't talk to anyone in class. Although he will respond to others talking to him, the feeling is still different. He didn't understand it when he was a child, but he understands it when he grows up. That is alienation, alienation that no one cares about.

He thought Qin Huai was like this to everyone, until he happened to bump into Qin Huai in the small flower bed downstairs coaxing a junior student with a bruised knee during class break. A child like a white dumping sat on the flower bed and cried

till he was sobbing. Qin Huai squatted on the ground and carefully cleaned up his seemingly minor scratches. Tears, and hugged to comfort.

At that time, he didn't know that the boy Jing was not Qin Huai's younger brother. one family at that time, there were also two families, but the envy had been there since then.

Later, he began to imitate Qin Huai and imitate him in every word and deed. He also wanted to become an excellent person like Qin Huai. Special, gradually turning from envy to jealousy, especially after knowing that Mu Nan has no relationship with Qin Huai at all, this kind of jealousy became more and more out of control.

The root cause should be that Mu Nan's parents would often come to pick Mu Nan up from school together, his father carried Mu Nan on his shoulders, and his mother hugged Qin. Huai, even if his grades improved even a little, one would want to have a big meal to celebrate, but his grades regressed He still has to eat a big meal to comfort him, what he sees is always all kinds of laughter

. of happiness was something he had never felt before.

Mu Nan's parents never seem to put any pressure on them, which is completely different from most parents of their age. In his own family, his father leaves early and returns late, and Silence only asks his mother if he has finished his homework. you say you want to go out to eat on your birthday, the response you get is always a refusal that you can buy a week's worth of food at home if you eat out. What's more, his grades are obviously good. When he was

in elementary school, he often got double percentiles in the exams. When relatives and friends asked him, his father never praised him. He just told him not to be proud and keep working hard. He often told relatives and friends that he was not good enough and denied his words.

Now he understands that this is the humility of an adult, but when he was a child, all he felt was negation, negation, negation of all his efforts.

The grades in elementary school are not very obvious, things are very simple, although there are rankings, but there are often quite a few wells ranked first. It wasn't until junior high school that the grades began to widen the gap. There were so many subjects studied that it was difficult to get full marks. It was at this time that Qin Huai's excellence became more conscious.

It's just that such an excellent person gave all his preferences and specialties to Mu Nan, who has no specialties except crying and being clingy.

He really wants to be favored by others. He really wants someone to tell him that you don't have to work hard, just be happy, but he can't. No one favors him. His family can't accept not working hard . His.

This longing for too long, too deep obsession, year after year, made him change from jealousy to a stubborn desire to completely replace it. Originally,

this kind of thought could still be suppressed by reason. After Mu Nan lost his parents , life can be said to be much worse than before. Although Qin Huai treats him better and better, his conditions are limited.

Sometimes when he was at their house, he would see Qin Huai tutoring Mu Nan in his homework, wishing to explain one equation to him in detail, but changing the numbers would not be stupid at all, so he felt vaguely refreshed, one day sooner or later , Qin Huai can fly very high, but Mu Nan, who can't even grow wings, will always be left behind.

But before that day came, he saw Qin Huai who had already grown wings, and he carried Mu Nan on his body to fly without getting too tired. Mu Nan didn't need to grow wings by himself, he could laugh when he was on Qin Huai's body very happy. So he lost his mind and his mentality was disturbed. Why do some people

work so hard but still can't get what they want, while some people can easily get what others desire most without doing anything.

If such a strong contrast is far away, he will not even be envious, because he knows that people in this world are inherently unequal, but the distance is too close, right in front of us, the same living environment, the same starting line , but such a huge gap.

It wasn't until Qin Huai pushed his shoulder that Jiang Xuan recovered from the distorted resentment. When he saw the water-based pen that had pierced the exercise set, he quickly relaxed his strength and turned around: "What's wrong?" Qin Huai said: "I'm asking

you , is there any gift you want, I will take Nannan to the Maldives for the winter vacation."

Jiang Xuan shook his head, he had never been out of the province, he didn't know where the Maldives was, and it was the first time he heard the word Maldives Saipan, so even if Qin Huai asked, he didn't know What do you want: "I can do anything, just bring a sauce."