p.s IF YOU ARE FEELING HOPELESS WANTING TO END IT ALL DONT YOU ARE WANTED YOU ARE NEEDED I AM ALWAYS HERE IF YOU WANNA TALK JUST DM ME ON INSTAGRAM (also im not doing the whole song and im changing a few
y/n pov
im only 29 , i have my whole life's ahead of me
i hate going on tour with him because the people there discredit me my boyfriend tries to show me that's not how it seems But everyday i get lowered with my self-esteem know matter what i do i feel hopeless and i dont know how to tell colson i want to be there for him but the fans keep sending death threats and its hurting me one time i even tried to overdose and take my life away but he takes his hand and places it beside my head and i cried for the longest time i even fell asleep and now hes at the hotel trying to get me to come along to he concert but i cant the fans hate me He tries to hold me but with every touch i still resists And then he sees the scars that bury deep within my wrists im feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask me, "Why?" i says this way i have control of the pain i feels inside He's asking me, "How long it's going since you've felt this? Way because you got me here, just feeling so damn helpless" i says, "It's been a while. I guess I needed better luck" And then he screams at me and tells me "Baby, never cut!" i look down " Cuz i fucking need you y/n i need you i dont give a fuck what they say about us all i want is you and me and casie to be one big fucking family please dont cut" i can feel him hug me me tight then there was a knock its rook " hey man time to go to the venue" then he walked out i feel a kiss and the he left
*2 hours itwas a 2 hour drive*
im feeling better than i was before Even cracked a couple smiles as i walked to the poolBut all that seemed to end, i dropped my books and when i walked into the pool room every person in the room just seemed to point and laugh i couldn't take it anymore, i sent him a text that said, "I love you with my body, heart and soul to death" he must be getting ready he thought nothing, typed "I love you", then he sent it By "death" he didn't know that i had literally just meant it i ran back to the room and into the bathroom and Thought to myself i wouldn't break my promise that soon One cut, two cuts, three cuts, four The blood just started dripping from the tub to the floor i guess colson had a feeling in his stomach that he hated He followed it right back to the hotel he never waited The door was open, he heard the water running He stormed into the bathroom and his heart just started gunning
*colsons pov*
i put her arm around my shoulder, im just tryna lean her back up Yelling out her name as i lay her beside the bathtub it Feels like my whole world just took a hit from a big avalanche Screaming out so heavily, "Somebody call an ambulance!" Feeling mad angry like somebody's led her onto this Her eyeballs are rolling, drifting out of consciousness Thinking to myself why the hell did she just stop at will The tears just keep on rolling as we head to the hospital rook came along the rest stated back incase casie came i start thinking to myself why didnt i just take her with me Paramedics rush her in, the doctor calls emergency She's lost a lot of blood the place looks like a murder scene An hour later, the doc walks over with a sour face And says, "Excuse me for the words that I'm about to saymshes barely stable" i just starts collapsing my own world, my own girl just took a crashin I keep m Saying to myself that it's my fault and that i let it up "Baby, I thought you made a promise you would never cut" I cant see anything except i can hear rook talking to the doctor an hour later im in her room she has a breathing tube in her mouth " i fucked up i did this to her" rook looked at me and said " no colson the fans pressured her into this stop saying you did it she will make it" thats when the heart monitor started beeping................
A/N: HEY YALL REMEMBER IF YOU WANT TO TALK JUST DM ME ALSO HOW HAVE YALL BEEN IM TRYING TO GET CAUGHT UP IN SCHOOL SO YEAH ALSO DO YALL WANT A PT 2? and i write on a computer so yeah FOR NOW BYEEEEEEEEEEE
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