struggling with mental illness, even if it means you sometimes hurt someone you care about, doesn't mean you are not deserving of love and happiness.
so please, be gentle. be patient. be kind. i am here for you. i love you.
thank you all for reading. thank you all for listening. thank you all for everything.
all my endless love and gratitude as always,
margo ♡
reference index:
i might've missed a few, but these are all i could see combing through it this time. also, i didn't check any of them for typos. yolo.
chapter one:
"im the best, worst thing that hasn't happened to you yet." - american beauty/american psycho
chapter ten:
"miserable and stunning." - the carpal tunnel of love
chapter eleven:
"i dont want to remember it all." - twin skeletons (hotel in nyc)
menthols are mentioned in this chapter and that's a super tiny detail but it comes from where did the party go
chapter thirteen:
"i'm just your early morning company." - fourth of july
chapter fourteen:
"you look so seattle, but you feel so l.a." - irresistible
"i'll check in tomorrow if i don't wake up dead." - alone together
chapter fifteen:
"just a problem that doesn't wanna be solved." - novocaine
chapter sixteen:
"what you do on your own time's just fine." - calm before the storm
"am i more than you bargained for yet?" - sugar, we're going down
chapter seventeen:
"i became such a strange shape from trying to fit in." - wilson (expensive mistakes)
"i always make such expensive mistakes." - also wilson (expensive mistakes)
chapter twenty:
"i think i fell in love again... or maybe i just took too much cough medicine." - american beauty/american psycho
"i don't care what you think, as long as it's about me." - i don't care
chapter twenty-one (pilots):
"frame me up on your wall, just to keep me out of trouble." - irresistible
chapter twenty-two:
"i said i'd never miss you... but i guess you never know." - fourth of july
chapter twenty-three:
"write me off... give up on me. what did you expect...? i'm just a lost cause." - a little less sixteen candles, a little more 'touch me'
"it's getting hard to know what's real." - church
chapter twenty-four:
"i think it looked a little better on me." - the phoenix
"if i can get my shit together, i'm gonna run away and never see any of you again." - wilson (expensive mistakes)
"you're the only place that feels like home." - i slept with someone in fall out boy and all i got was this stupid song written about me
"i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake." - nobody puts baby in the corner
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american beauty // joshler
Fanfiction"all those dirty thoughts of me, they were never yours to keep." where tyler is a model and josh is a photographer. - a book of fall out boy references, some smut, a lot of mental illness, and drama. #22 in joshler 3/7/23 ♡
background, final note, and reference index
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