All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 8

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You need to get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yes you loved him and very greatly, I know that. I also know that you just can't see yourself with anyone else other than him, I get that. I've been there. But why should we spend all of our time sitting at home, crying our eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Should we honestly think he is thinking about us too? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there and falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you're gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends one day and that might be in the coffee shop or down the street. So prepare yourself because it's gonna hurt. He is going to hold her a little bit closer and squeeze her hand a little bit tighter just because he knows you're watching. He knows that it's killing you and that's driving him to do it. Don't let him get to you because that's exactly what he wants. Please don't give him the satisfaction of what he wants. He doesn't fucking deserve it. So what if he's not talking to you everyday, I'll be honest do you really want to be friends with this kind of asshole? Because the thing is I know you still do. And you need to give it time. Because all he is going to do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous in the process and do you really wanna hear that? Probably not. So screw him and his new fucking girlfriend. He will be sorry one day. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who's not him with a big smile on your face and your boyfriend holding you as close as he did to his new girl, he will realize how happy you are now. He will see how happy your boyfriend is because he has you the girl of his dreams. He will realize the biggest mistake he made when he decided to let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just didn't love you the same way. Trust me, he will be sorry. So please don't you sit there thinking he isn't be sorry because I guarantee you now he will be one day. So don't continue to go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you're never going to get, or that message you know he is never going to send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend and he likes to play these games where he does not see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows it's killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he will look at you, and you need to know he will do that because he knows somewhere inside you it will hurt you. I'm not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It'll hurt a lot. But it will hurt you even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his new profile. It's all going to hurt. Knowing you're not the girl anymore that used to make him smile. Knowing you're not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you're not the face of that background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn't already he will delete the cute album you created of pictures on his phone. Know you won't be the one spending every single moment possible with him. Know that there's not gonna be any more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, or even fucking months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, and you will instantly go to grab your phone hoping that it's from him saying he wants to give the relationship another shot. But trust me; he's got way too much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he honestly wouldn't tell you. And your soon gonna realize this that he doesn't care about you anymore, he won't be the first person you call when you're upset. He won't be the one to put that smile back on that pretty face. And it's gonna fucking hurt; it's going to hurt a lot. But I can tell you what you're going to do? You are going to hold your beautiful head up high and you're going to show him you're better than he ever was and you won't need him in this beautiful extraordinary life that you have. You will prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting such a wonderful thing like you go and that you never really needed him after all