Honkai Simulator, Is It Me You're Looking For? [Fan-Translation]

Chapter 53 The Lonely Moon, The Thousand Year Feather

"Shut up! Who dares to ridicule me, it's not your turn! Herrscher, I have forgotten many things since I was a child, but I still remember that you said you loved him! Come on, I dare you to say that you're happy for his death, and that you didn't feel anything when he died, I will give up my body to you now if you do! No resistance! I dare you to say it!"

While roaring in her mind, she also roared out in reality, and Kiana loudly questioned the ferocious power in her mind.

"I, of course not, I am the will to destroy the world, he is just a mortal... Humph, what can I do to kill myself, the whole world can't find someone like him who eats the Gem of Serenity like candy, That idiot!"

And from the beginning to the end, Herrscher of the Void didn't say a bad word about Kiana's father, but groaned a few words, turned her head, and hid in the depths of her mind, which made the corners of Kiana's mouth curl up.

In this most difficult moment, it was the Will of this bastard Herrscher who gave Kiana a trace of warmth. The Herrshcer was indeed a being who would destroy the world, but she never said anything bad about her Dad from the beginning to the end. 

Although she didn't know what happened to them in the past, Kiana felt that it must be a long story.

"You're awake, Kiana, let's go, the patrol mechs are coming soon, I just sensed that a very strong Honkai Reaction occurred in Arc City, it should be at the level of a Divine Key... "

After Kiana finally woke up, another anxious voice sounded in her mind immediately, but Kiana only hated her.

That was Fu Hua, Kiana's squad leader, one of the people she trusted and relied on the most, but she betrayed this trust, captured herself, and handed her over to Otto, awakening her into The Herrscher of Void. 

"I don't want to listen to you, Fu Hua, I don't have any trust in you now, all your words are just a disguise, don't make any more noise."

Responding indifferently to the voice in her head, Kiana took a deep breath, manipulated the Houkai energy, easily bounced between buildings, and soon jumped to the top of the building.

The moon is full and bright, and Kiana still remembers her father explaining that her name is related to the moonlight.

How much Kiana missed him all these years! But now... everything is impossible.

"Ha--"

However, Kiana still did not shed tears, and her vague memory could still remember that her Dad would smile to comfort her every time she cried, but her Dad was gone, so she had to learn to be strong.

A few months ago, she had indeed went Berserk, but Kiana knew that she must not let this problem continue, and she had to find a solution.

Dad sacrificed himself for her, so Kiana felt that she could also make this sacrifice. In this world, there are many people she cares about! I must not hurt them.

And soon, a soft apology sounded in Kiana's ear.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, Kyana, I never thought that Otto would be so crazy, I... It's my fault, although I only have a part of the memory, I understand what I did was a big mistake, I will do my best to help you."

In Kiana's mind, Fu Hua's apologetic voice sounded.

"I also had someone I loved deeply, and later, because of my mistake, I let him go away from me. I understand how painful it is, so I hope I can help you-not as a Class Monitor, but just as Fu Hua, an ordinary person, okay?"

This is just Fu Hua's will to use Fenghuang Down to reside in Kiana's mind. In her long life, she has divided her memory countless times because of the MANTIS Surgery, and now what she remembers may be less than one percent

But, even so, she could still remember a vague figure, that was her Older Brother, no, not just her Older Brother, but... her lover?

Although his appearance and name had been placed in an unknown feather as early as ten thousand years ago, there was still a voice that kept ringing in Fu Hua's mind.

【Go to him, find your love! Even if time flies and the world is changing, you must never forget him, go to him, love him, and he will definitely meet you again! 】

That voice kept echoing in her mind, even louder and it was harder to ignore than the voice ordering her to resolutely fight against the Honkai—the origin of this voice has been completely forgotten, but Fu Hua knew that this voice was left by her for her!

And relying on the remaining memory, Fu Hua can only remember the few moments spent with him.

He told her that if someone did something wrong, besides making up for it silently, they must apologize.

It seems that I have made some big mistakes, but that person also used his life to make up for her mistakes - now, Fu Hua wants to apologize.

"I won't force you to believe me, Kiana, but I will always help you to make up for what I did. Please, let me do anything!"

From the memory, I found out what my brother often said when he apologized to her, and Fu Hua told Kiana in turn.

Such a solemn, soft, and serious apology made Kiana a little overwhelmed. She was shuttling between tall buildings and almost fell down.

"Hey...that's disgusting, I'm starting to wonder if you're the squad leader Fu Hua."

"Hey, disgusting? Is it?"

"Okay, I won't accept your apology, but I may really need your help, so let's cooperate temporarily."

In the end, Kiana curled her lips and agreed to Fu Hua. Her Dad taught her that in the face of a big enemy, she must unite with those who can be allied.

"However, Squad Leader Fu Hua, it turns out that you still had someone you loved in the past. I didn't expect it—I didn't expect it—what's his name?"

 A serious class monitor actually has someone they like, and her curiosity about this matter even made Kiana forget about the bad situation - the person who can be liked by the old-fashioned class monitor must be super old-fashioned!

"No, I, this, this is just a feather, I can't remember his name..."

As for this, Fu Hua seemed a little embarrassed and a little disappointed.

"It's okay, I don't remember my Dad's name, I just remember that I have been calling him Dad since I was a child, and when I think about it, I have forgotten his real name since I haven't heard it a few times, I just remember that he's my Dad, It's a pity that I can't see him again—maybe it's because clones have poor memory, my grades are so bad, it must be because of clones!"

Finally, Kiana smiled again. She had to laugh to survive the long lonely night.

And at this moment, Fu Hua's voice reminded her again.

"Kiana, Honkai reaction below, as if someone was attacked!"

Hearing Fu Hua's words, two Subspace Spears sprouted from behind Kiana and rushed toward the ground.

Soon, suppressing the power to go berserk, Kiana eliminated all the Honkai beasts, turned her head, and looked at the two "little lovers".

Afterward, Kiana's smile became brighter.

"Miss Rita... What a coincidence, you came to Arc, are you planning to find me?"