"snowfall" december 8th, 2022
chorus 1
december night, i'm here again waiting for the snowfall
these days all we get is rain and countless close calls
christmas decorations lined up and down the whole block
a special occasion
why can't it just all stop?
post-chorus 1
winter's pretty hard
i've formed lots of scars
bandaids on my heart
following the star
but never get too far
verse
i'm trying my best to be happy this season
happy holidays without a reason
wrapping paper cuts and scars my fingers
and i don't think my grass is getting any greener
christmas lights are out and now my socket's shot
and i'm just sick and tired of pretending i'm not
my ornaments have shattered and my tree is wilting
nativity set's broken, just like me, it's fitting
chorus 2
december night, i'm here again waiting for the snowfall
these days all we get is rain and countless close calls
everyone's been calling me
no, i won't pick up
something bout this haunts me
why can't it just all stop
post-chorus 2
been going through some things
and finding myself wings
i'm fighting inbetween
and begging on my knees
it's how i start to see
verse 2
carolers down the block, i turn off my lights
hoping they don't knock, hoping i don't cry
all my candles lit
something that i dont hate
but i can't forget to put them out; it's late
i hate this time of year
it's worse each time around
your head's up with a cheer
while i'm laying on the ground
outro
fighting inner demons, struggling inside
fighting with my feelings, i just want to die
fighting inner demons, struggling inside
fighting with my feelings, i just want to die
my ornaments have shattered, and my tree is wilting
nativity set's broken, just like me, it's fitting
-how i feel about the holiday season