Inevitable

77. A Split 💔

The only reason I wanted to stay alive was for my friends and Sierra.

I don't have a family and I don't really talk to my friends anymore.

So what's left for me?
I talk to Theo, him and I are still close but I lost everyone else.

I lost Sierra.
It seems she's chosen Draco.

I can tell that her and Draco aren't as close as they used to be.

I see the look on Draco's face when she shoves him away.

She didn't like how I made her do things.
She liked how Draco didn't.

Her dad said not to give up on her but I did.
Not by choice, by force.

She pushed me away.

She said that me making her do thing slowly made her lose her will to live.
I couldn't argue with that.

I've become addicted to weed.

It's the only thing that helps me cope with the stress and pain.

I have so much shit to do and such little motivation.

This feeling is so new to me.
I've never been worried or felt anxious.
I've been relaxed all my life so now that I'm not I have no idea how to cope.

(Theos Pov)
I should have been there for Sierra from the start but I thought Draco and Mattheo could handle it.

I miss everyone and wish we could go back to the way it used to be.

I still talk to Mattheo the way we always have which is good.

There's still a war which means over the summer they'll make us practice and we'll have to speak to one another again.

(Pansys Pov)
The way her dad was taken so sudden and unfair.

She's lost all care for everything.
I tried talking to her but she wouldn't speak to me.

Not because she hated me, she just couldn't.
I couldn't stand it because I wanted to be there for her.

She's lost a lot of weight which means she's not eating.
She has bags under her eyes which means she's not sleeping.

I still love her and would help her any day.
I'm afraid she'll never be herself again.

(Blaise's Pov)
I've made a decision not to fight in the war.
I'll still go to meetings and practice so Voldemort doesn't get suspicious.

Harry and I made a deal.
I told him I wouldn't be against him but I couldn't release any classified information.

I couldn't betray the people I was friends with.

(Mattheos Pov)
I was walking in the halls and made eye contact with Harry.
He grinned at me.

"What are you smiling at." I said.
"You death eaters are finally getting what you deserve." He said.

Sierra and Draco walked in the same direction as me.

Their timing was impeccable.

"Look at Draco, it's clear he's ill.
Look at Sierra, she's hanging on by a thread." Said Harry.

"Why don't you mind your own god damn business." I said shoving him against the wall.

Sierra and Draco stopped to watch.
Suddenly Fred, George and Ron came up.

"You can try something but it won't work.
4 against 1." Said Harry. 

"Surprised you pricks are still alive, all this sadness should have taken over." Said Adrian walking over.