chapter 1- first day.

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It's currently 5am and i have school in one hour but i still haven't slept thanks to my insomnia. I've just been listening to my favorite bad, twenty one pilots and staring at the ceiling.
I'm obviously wearing my headphones cause i don't want to wake up my brother, Derek yet.
I look at my arms and see the many cuts all over both of them. I know i cut myself like a few hours ago but I'm still having the urge to do it again.. mostly it's because i start a real school today after being homeschooled my entire life by my brother even before the fire that killed our family.
The weird thing is, i would imagine that when i cut myself it'll heal quickly right? But what i discovered is that if i don't want something to heal it doesn't have to. I'm not sure if this works for other werewolves but it works for me. I guess i kinda just found a way to control it.
I look at the clock again and see it's 6:30am so i decide to get up sense i obviously won't be sleeping.
I walk over to the bathroom and take a shower. I'm washing my hair and i just can't stop thinking about how awful today is gonna be. What if no one likes me? What if everyone thinks I'm a freak or something? They're probably gonna think I'm just and ugly and fat bitch who can't do anything right. Who knows, they might even be right.
I start having a panick attack so my mind goes to the easy solution for it wich is cutting myself. I get my razor and create 17 new cuts. After I'm done with that i dry my hair and bandage my arm. Then, i change into an outfit i feel comfortable in.

 Then, i change into an outfit i feel comfortable in

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It's now 7:00am and my brother knocks on my door.
"Come in." I say.
"Hey, ready to go?" Derek asks.
"Yeah, you don't have to take me there i can walk."
"You sure?"
"Yeah, thanks idiot."
"Ok no problem nerd."
I get my backpack and headphones then start walking to school. I know my way around town sense i grew up here, i just never really entered the school before.
I play some music through my phone's so no one will talk to me during my walk there.
After a few minutes, i get there. I stop before walking in. Beacon hills highschool. Ok it's fine. I walk inside and just focus on the music playing In my phones.
"I-I-I've got a migraine
And my pain will range from
Up down and sideways
Thank God it's Friday
'Cause Fridays will always
Be better than Sundays
'Cause Sundays are my suicide days
I don't know why they
Always seem so dismal
Thunderstorms, cloud, snow
And a slight drizzle
Whether it's the weather
Or the letters by my bed
Sometimes death seems better
Than the migraine in my head"
I start looking for the counselors office but i can't seem to find it so i kinda start panicking a bit.
STILES POV:
"Alright well, if you don't believe me about the wolf then your definitely not gonna believe me about when i tell you I found the body." Scott says.
"Are you kidding me?"
"No man, i wish. I'm gonna have nightmares for a month."
"Oh God that's freaking awesome. I mean this is seriously gonna be the best thing that's happened to this town since- since the birth of Lydia Martin. -i say as she walks past me.- hey Lydia, you look.. like your gonna ignore me.. your the cause of this, you know?" I tell Scott after she walks straight past me.
"Uh huh."
"Dragging me down to your nerd depths. I'm a nerd by association. I've been scarlet needed by you."
We start walking to class.
"Sure you have."
Suddenly i see this really fucking cute guy who I've never seen before looking kinda lost.
"Oh my god Scott, Scott look."
"What?"
"Over there look!"
"What are you talking about?"
"The super cute guy right there. I think he's new here."
"Wow, you moved on from Lydia quickly." He says mocking me.
"Haha funny. Scott- wh- what are you doing? -i ask as he starts walking over to him.- no don't do that Scott!"
"Hey! I'm Scott, this is my best friend stiles."
"H- hi." I say awkwardly.
"Hey, uh- I'm y/n."
"Are you new here? I haven't seen you here before."
"Yeah, this is my first day here. I was just looking for the counselors office to get my schedule."
"Oh, we can show you where it is."
"Scott what are you doing?"
"Don't worry i got this."
"Sure, i mean if you don't mind."
"Not at all."
Y/NS POV:
Ok. This guy with a super cute friend just came up to me it's fine I'm fine. My gay brain is not panicking at all right now. Just, don't be weird.
"Here it is." Scott says.
"Thanks."
"We'll see you around then."
"Yeah, sure."
"Bye!"
"Oh yeah uh- bye!" Stiles says.
"See ya." I say as i walk into the office.
"You must be y/n right?"
"Yeah."
"Great, here's your schedule."
"Thank you."
I take a look at my schedule and start looking for the right classroom.
When i get there i see this girl walking to the same class as me.
"Hey! I'm Allison. I'm new here." She says.
"Hi, I'm y/n. Also new here. I hope this is the right classroom."
"Me too oh my god i would hate it if it weren't it would be so awkward."
"I know right."
A guy who works at the school comes up to us and makes sure we're at the right place then walks inside the room with us.
"Class, these are our new students Allison argent and y/n hale. Please do your best to make them feel welcome." Then, he leaves.
Luckily there's an empty seat behind the guy i met earlier, stiles so i go and sit there.
"Hey y/n." He says with a cute smile.
"Hey, stiles."

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