Synthetic Love, My Hatefuck

Backstage Fun

"Goodluck babe!" I tell Josh as he gets ready to open for Attila. He grunts and walks away, pulling himself away from my embrace without even laying a hand on me. As I stand there for a minute I feel eyes on me. Chris Fronzak. Damn you look fine baby I think to myself. I normally would feel guilty if I even thought this, but lately I've been pushed aside for fangirls. I sit down, and notice Mr. Fronzac is now standing next to me. No one else in his band is around yet, so I don't feel awkward at all. "You know, he doesn't deserve you. You're such an angel and he's been pushing you aside this whole damned tour." HE sits down and to where his leg is touching mine, and he puts his Ark around me. "T-t-thanks," I say, "But I know that tours stress him out." Chris replies, "Well with someone as sweet and as sexy as you I don't see how he could be so man all the time, so you?" He asks with a playful smile. I begin to blush and he notices. "Damn you look sexy when you blush," he says, and I bat my eyelashes I'm going to hell anyways. Without thinking I rub my hand up and down his thigh. He pulls my head in towards his and kisses me, softly but growing items deeper. Within two minutes I'm sitting on him, facing him. As his hands go down my shoulders to my chest, I feel him smirk. I bite his lip but then tell him we should stop even though I don't want to. I'm glad we stopped when we did because Motionless had just finished their last song, Abigail. However, I did not notice that they walked in when I was facing Chris, pulling my skirt up my thigh. "JEEVAN! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK! HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON FOR?!" Crap, it's Balz. Chris Fronzac jumps to my defense as the guys in MIW leave for privacy. "Well maybe if you hadn't treated her like shit through this whole tour she wouldn't go to someone who would actually fuckin take care of her!" Balz looks furious, and I'm scared. "Listen Fronzac! She's mine! Yeah I'm pissed at her too but I can understand why she did what she did. But if you wouldn't have started it by always checking her out like the disgusting pig you are she wouldn't have done it!" That was true and Balz knew it. I just wanted someone to give me more attention. As Fronzac is about to say something in his defense Balz says, "Don't act innocent, I know what's been going on. I've seen Jeevan look uncomfortable as fuck around you. I knew better than to leave her here backstage for one more night. I was hoping that it wasn't this. That there wasn't something between you two! That's why she dressed like a fucking skank tonight!" As my eyes start to water, I finnaly look at Balz. I see a mix of love, pity, and anger in his eyes. "Come on Jee, let's go." He says this angrily, but he only calls me Jee when he isn't mad at me. This boy has me so confused.