Break - ItachixReader

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Short a/n before you start reading. This chapter has mentions of suicide and self harm. This is your trigger warning. Also, I know some people probably don't read the description, but you might want to if you haven't already. It has important info about the story. Thank you and Enjoy the story! 🖤🖤

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I stepped into my bedroom, pausing as I looked around - something was different. Itachi's things were gone. There was a note on the bed so I quickly grabbed it, slowly reading over it.

"To my beloved y/n,

There are so many things I wish I could say to you right now. I'm sorry things had to be this way, but I can't be with you anymore. Do not look for me, do not call or text me and please whatever you do, don't bring this up to Sasuke. He'll try coming after me too and that's the last thing I want. I love you with everything I am, every fiber of my being. But I just can't do this to you anymore.

                 -Forever yours, Itachi"

My hands trembled as I stared at the note, watching as my silent tears stained the paper with my sadness. My legs gave out from underneath me and I fell to the floor, just laying there as the tears rolled down my face. I'm not sure how long I spent, wallowing on the floor. But I know I didn't sleep. I was so out of it that before I knew it, the sun began rising.

I've never felt so empty and alone in my entire life. Not even after my parents and older brother had passed. I contemplated laying there longer, even though I knew that Sasuke would think something was up if I didn't go into work like usual. But I also figured that, at this point, Itachi was long gone and left no trace of where he was going. In fact, knowing him we wouldn't even be able to trace his phone because he probably ditched it and got a new one.

My phone rang and I made no move to answer it, I didn't have the strength or will power to force myself to get up and continue on living my life. The will and drive I had to be happy was sucked right out of me. My phone went off again but I just continued to lay there on the floor. I counted at least thirty calls in a span of fifteen minutes. But I didn't care - Itachi disappeared and took a big part of me with him. I knew I would no longer be the same.

After about fifteen minutes of silence I got up slowly, clutching the note tightly in my hands. I made my way to the bathroom and filled the tub with water and undressed, grabbing my razor as I got in the tub, slowly lowering myself into the water. I was numb, I couldn't feel anything. It was as if my body was frozen because of how numb it was. I sank down into the water, leaning my head back to rest against the tub and stared blankly at the ceiling as I did something I hadn't done in the six years that I had been with Itachi.

I quickly broke the razor, pulling the blade out and began slashing my left wrist. I wanted to feel something - anything, even pain. But I was so numb I didn't even flinch as I drug the blade across my other wrist, slashing it up just as many times as I did with my left. Blood dripped onto the paper, and I carefully balled it up, tossing it into the trash can as I relaxed into the tub, waiting for death to come for me.

If Itachi was gone for good, I saw no reason to be in this world any longer. Without him I am nothing. He was my entire world and now that is gone, for forever. I could feel my body growing weak as my eyelids grew heavy. I stared down at the water, mentally apologizing to Sasuke for abandoning him at a time like this. My eyelids closed as I started feeling the last of my energy leaving my body.

"I'm.. sorry that I wasn't enough for you, Itachi."

"You know, y/n. You didn't do anything wrong."

I blinked as I opened my eyes, looking around. I was sitting in a beautiful meadow, filled with my favorite flowers. I turned my head to the right, my eyes widening as my gaze fell on my older brother, Shisui.

"Shisui?"

"I'm going to kick his ass for this the next time I see him. What an idiot. I can't believe he left a note instead of talking to you."

"Why can I see you? Am I dead?" Shisui sighed, giving me a sad smile. "No sister. But you are at the precipice though."

"Where are we?"

"Well, I guess you could call it the place between heaven and hell. At the moment it seems that we are the only ones here."

"But why are you here? Why aren't you in heaven?"

"Because, I've decided to stay on the spiritual plane of your world in order to see my unfinished business to an end."

"But.." I gasped as the scenery changed and we were sitting on my bathroom floor. "So you've been here with me this whole time?"

"Yes of course I have. That's why I'm still here, because you're alive y/n. I also knew if something bad happened to you, you'd need some guidance." He sighed, his gaze going to the tub where my body lay still. "I'm sorry for not being there for you when I should have. I guess that's why I'm still here. I have this guilt in my heart for abandoning you."

"Shisui no.. what happened to you was not your fault and you know that! You can't just blame yourself! I was doing okay.. until yesterday when I came home to see that Itachi's things were gone. I found a note.."

I went silent, staring down at my hands, my whole body was glowing like a bright white light. Shisui grabbed my hand gently and I gasped at the sudden feeling of familiarity. His hand was so warm. I shook my head, waiting for my tears to fall.

"Y/n, look at me." I looked over at him and he smiled the brightest smile I'd seen in a while. "It's going to be okay."

But suddenly, everything went dark. I kept seeing flashes of Shisui's face and cried out, reaching for him.

"Shisui what's happening?!"

"It's okay y/n. They're saving you. It isn't your time to die yet."

"But - no! I don't want to leave you! Please Shisui! It hurts!"

"I'm sorry y/n but it's too late for me. Just promise you won't be so reckless in the future over a boy. Please y/n, promise me that you'll live a full, long and happy life!"

"But I can't! Not without Itachi!"

"Yes you can! You're our mothers child! You don't need a man to make you happy!"

The flashes stopped and I screamed out for Shisui, hearing my sobs only in my head. I couldn't believe I lost him for a second time. What the hell am I going to do now?

"How is she?!"

That voice.. it sounds so familiar.

"She's stable for now but we have to get her to the hospital or it won't stay that way."

"Sasuke, you go with y/n. I'll call Madara."

"Yea, I got it."

His voice sounded so pained. I sighed quietly and closed my eyes, giving myself over to the darkness. At least I was breathing. I could hear what was happening around me, but I couldn't see.

"Y/n, you idiot. You better have a good fucking explanation for this or Madara is going to lock you up in a mental hospital."

That's definitely Sasuke. Being an ass after I nearly died.

"Please don't ever do that to me again. I don't know what happened, but it must be bad if you were willing to give your life away. Itachi is going to be furious when he hears about this."