AGS 4: The Best Man's Wedding

Chapter 11: Fallen

Punas lang ako nang punas ng mata ko habang parang baliw na kumakanta.

"I want you to come back and carry me home . . . away from these long lonely nights . . ."

Nag-alis ako ng pants at ibinato na lang sa sahig.

"There's no easy way, it gets harder each day . . . please love me, or I'll be gone . . ."

Sobrang sakit ng dibdib ko, hindi ko alam kung paano ilalabas ang lahat ng sama ng loob ko ngayon. Halos kalahatiin ko ang maliit na bote habang kumakanta at umiiyak.

"I'm all out of love . . . what am I without you?"

Punas ako nang punas ng mukha ko habang umiiyak.

"I can't be too late, I know I was so . . . wrong . . ."

Lalo lang lumakas ang iyak ko habang yakap ang maliit na bote.

"Clark . . . sorry . . ."

Napalingon ako nang biglang tumunog ang elevator.

Parang huminto ang paghinga ko nang makita ko siya sa kabubukas lang na elevator. Hindi na ako nakakilos nang bigla siyang lumabas doon at dali-dali siyang lumapit sa akin.

"Clark . . ."

Inagaw niya ang boteng hawak ko at pabatong inihulog sa may rug na malapit sa amin.

I was expecting na pagagalitan niya ako kasi umiinom ako ngayon, but nope.

He was serious. He cupped my cheeks, and the next thing I knew, he was already kissing me.

Naiwan ang mga kamay ko sa hangin, nalilito kung paano siya hahawakan.

His kisses were punishing and thirsty. I could feel my lips getting numb, and his tongue was giving mine a taste of it.

In an instant, I felt like the world froze and let us feel this moment.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me. I draped my legs around his waist and let him carry me as we kissed.

I was shouting inside my head saying, "Please, kung panaginip ka, gisingin mo na lang ako kasi ayokong umasa . . ."

But I was gasping, looking for a space to breathe. He carefully lay me on the bed and I watched him remove his shirt.

"Please tell me, hindi ka hallucination . . ." mahinang sinabi ko habang pinipigil umiyak.

Yumuko siya sa akin at lumapit sa bandang leeg ko. "Hindi ako hallucination. And I might regret this later."

He kissed me on my neck, and his body was teasing me, it wasn't any help to prevent me from thinking the worst. I reeled my head backward to let him kiss every part of me.

It felt so illegal to consider this my childhood dream, but I wasn't a child anymore.

His knees spread my legs, and I could feel him taking his shorts off.

I was catching his eyes, trying to see if this was just a game for us I shouldn't be taken seriously . . . but his eyes spoke of sadness we seldom see.

My hands ran from his neck down to his muscular chest, trying to visualize it using my hands as I stared at his sad brown eyes.

"Do you really want to do this, Clark . . . ?" I miserably asked.

"Sabihin mong huminto ako, hihinto ako."

Hinahamon ako ng tingin niya. Hindi ako nakasagot. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot.

Ang bigat ng paghinga ko habang nakikita siya sa harapan ko. Para siyang panaginip na biglang lumabas sa utak ko at binibigyan ako ng chance ngayon para mas pangarapin pa siya.