FIRE & ICE

Chapter 39 : Date at Swift

                                   ANUSHKA🤍

It only took about twenty minutes before we finally arrived at the restaurant Sammy did the reservation at for our date..It was a very fancy hotel , the outside only made that vividly clear..I suddenly felt so small, like I didn't belong there which I didn't of course..That was how I always felt every time I stepped in a space reserved for the riches..I always felt out of place and the feeling was never pleasant at all..I seriously would have appreciated it if he had took me somewhere I felt comfortable..Somewhere I could be able to pay for my own food if I wanted to..Maybe a street vendor or some two-star street restaurant or anything of that sort, besides I'd rather support a small-time business than some rich person who already have more money that could feed the whole town ,if not the whole conurbation..Fairly so, the man didn't think I'd like to eat somewhere like that ,so I couldn't blame him..He had money after all  ,so he obviously thought that a five-star restaurant was the best idea ,which in a way was and any other woman in my place would have been thrilled to eat at such a fancy spot and have a very handsome and kind guy by her side..

But I wasn't....But I didn't complain though

Sammy curved his arm around my waist pulling me on his side after giving his car keys to a valet and strictly told the man to take a good care of his car before we made our was inside the breathtaking interior of Swift Restaurant..I didn't know how to feel about his hand that was still firm on my waist as we pushed inside..Though it seemed that it was just a harmless friendly gesture or whatever but I certainly didn't appreciate him touching me like that..I was his soon-to-be-wife ,I understood that but it just didn't feel right with his hand on my body..I didn't like it...my body didn't like it..And just when I was about to point it out to him ,my minded drifted back to the sole reason why I even agreed to go out on this date with Sammy..

I needed to get myself to like him..

I had to give the man a chance and for that to happen, I had to be a little bit more affectionate, though the thought its self disgusted me but I had to put in some effort too if I wanted our relationship to at least work ..With that thought , I slowly removed his had from waist and I grabbed the same hand in my hand and laced our fingers together..The man's eyes sparkled in happiness ,grinning widely as he looked shortly at our intertwined hands and then back at me..I felt like a hypocrite when I forced a warm smile to my face and actually acted that 'our intertwined hands' meant anything.. I knew for sure that if it was her hand I was hold ,my body would be on fire right now..But right now I felt nothing...

No goosebumps or delicious shivers..

No butterflies in my stomach..

No crazily beating heart..

No heavy breathing..

Absolutely nothing...

It just felt like I was holding a friend's hand..Sure,his touch made me feel a little safe but you know that 'safe' you feel around your family member or anybody you trust ,that was how I felt with him..It wasn't that protective-possessive-warmly safe I always felt when I'm with Mcke....

No ,I'm definitely not thinking about her right now or....ever...

I'm not saying her name..

Yes..

"Hey ,are you alright?" Sammy asked snapping me back from my thoughts and I nodded grinningly at him

"I'm great"