My Beautiful Murderer (sasunaru)

^*No More Secrets*^

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When I come back into reality, he's gone. No longer in the room. No longer in the vicinity of the house. Gone. Never to return to my line of sight again.

"Sasuke." Narutos voice catches me off guard, and I spin around to look at him. His face is filled with worry and confusion. Looking at him makes me angry. Brother would have never left if it wasn't for Naruto.

He would have never hurt me and left because of it. Everything is always your fault Naruto. Why do you always have to be the blame of my problems? Why can't you just stay away?

Without saying a word to him, I turn and walk towards the door to his room, ready to walk straight out of this hell he created. When his voice calls out to me.

"Sasuke wait!" He yells. As he spoke, I can hear as he jumps up onto his feet.

"Naruto." I say quietly, my back turned to him. "I don't want to see you right now."

"I know." He says quietly as well. "But I can't leave you alone, considering what just happened."

"Im fine."

I continue walking away. I've made it out of his room and im making my way down the long hallway that leads to the living room. I expect to feel Narutos arms around me, holding me back and begging me to stay. But i just keep walking, and he doesn't say anything. He doesn't stop me.

When im a good ways away from his room I stop. I turn my head to look behind me, back towards his room. There he stands, in the doorway of his room, watching as i walk away.

"Your not gonna stop me from leaving?"  I ask him.

He takes a second to answer. He sighs, drawing in a long breath. "Im not gonna force you to forgive me." He starts. He keeps his eyes locked on mine the entire time he speaks. "If you need to be alone, I'll let you be alone." He pauses. "Just don't do anything stupid." And then he smiles. At a time like this... he can still smile? How? Why? What is there to smile about anymore?

"Goodbye Sasuke." He says, keeping that smile on his face. "I hope Itachi comes back." Then his bedroom door is shut, hiding himself behind it.

Why....?

Why is everything going wrong? I didn't think.... I deserved all of this. Am i really... that bad of a person to deserve so much?

I.....

I fall to my knees, my head down, hands on the ground. The pain comes rushing in. All the pain that's built up over the years. But i don't cry, i just sit there. Thinking about everything. As i stare at the hardwood floor in Narutos house, I think of one thing and one thing only. My family. The family I once had. Once knew. The family before I knew they were all killers. The happy family I had when i was just a little kid. The family.... I want back. The mother who made delicious breakfast in the  morning with a warm smile on her face. You could smell her buttery pancakes and bacon all the way in your room when you wake up. The father who taught me how to ride a bike. The brother... who always made me smile, and made sure i was happy. I want that. But I... Can't.

I....

...should go see her.

Despite how horrible i feel, i stand up and walk out of the house and to my car. I turn the car on and drive away. My head feels heavy, fuzzy. Probably from the blow to the head i had earlier. Or maybe it's just the shock and confusion I'm going through. All the emotions piling up at once. So much has happened in such a short amount of time. How could brother leave me after everything I've been through? After everything we've been through?