I've fallen (Epistolary) ✔️

27

Spencer Tuazon
06:03 PM

Spencer:
Nice tattoo

Linus:
Thanks

You can shut up now

Spencer:
Sorry I didn't know that you're..

Linus:
I don't care

Spencer:
Linus, can we please talk for once

Linus:
You're homophobic.

That's why.

And I don't care anymore.

Spencer:
I'm not homophobic

I told you I had a gay client before and it's chill. My ex was gay, a bit traumatizing, but it's chill now.

Linus:
Did I fucking ask?

Spencer:
You never talk seriously

Linus:
What happened that night is more intimate than fucking sex. No one talks about that again.

Spencer:
But it can be talked about again

Is that a law? That no one can speak about an intimate thing again?

Linus:
Oh shut up

Spencer:
I didn't know why I agreed to that

I didn't know why I let that happened

Linus:
Yea and you regret it and we're done

I won't talk to you again

It won't matter

Spencer:
But it does matter a lot to you...

For some unknown reason, you were so vulnerable that night

Linus:
Because I was mourning for a friendship I didn't get to save because I was confused about my sexuality

That's what happened.

I lost two friendships because of them and I feel betrayed they married each other and I didn't get to move on from it even when it happened years ago already

They moved on and I was left.

I feel goddamn betrayed

It's a mistake also. I was supposed to talk to your sister. I was supposed to be vulnerable in front of her. I was holding tears to shed it in front of her.

It's not supposed to be with you.

Do you understand that now?

Spencer:
Were you thinking I was her
when you cried?

Linus:
No.

That pisses me more because you were thinking of me being gay instead of being concerned on why I'm crying.

I was holding you, crying, being vulnerable and all you were thinking is whether I'm gay or not.

Can you hear how absurd that is?

I would appreciate it more if you left
me in front my unit.

Spencer:
I know that was bullshit

I just don't know what to do that time

Linus:
You know what to do.

Spencer:
And I did do it

Linus:
You know what, this is fucked up.

I don't care anymore

Spencer:
Linus, listen

I don't know if I'm like you or not

I hope you understand

Linus:
Gay is just a three letter word.

No, you're not gay, don't push yourself. You can't even say it straight and you think you're gay?

I don't like you, just clearing that shit in case you're assuming things.

Spencer:
Alright

At least we're clear