When We Cross Paths Again!

Chapter 28

I move around with different hand and arm gestures as I pace and ramble to myself. I can barely even hear Spencer say my name for the hundredth time.

"Meghan Jade Quinn!" Spencer calls out to me as he gently grabs my arms by my sides then slides his hands down my arms into my hands after I stop moving.

"Sorry."

"Don't be. That call was out of the blue and made by someone who you thought had blocked you two months ago and found out some pretty worrying information early in the morning. Just breathe and stop pacing so you won't pass out. We will get through this together. Let's make a game plan, ok?"

"Ok."

"We'll let Anastasia and Hotch know about the phone call between you and Gideon who will inform the team about it, but not Lilliana. Then we can get breakfast together and go to the hospital to cheer Braelynn on in physical therapy. Keep our heads held high for each other and everyone around us."

"Spencer, I'm scared. I know I don't act like it, but I am. I don't want to feel like I have to look over my shoulder all the time anymore. I miss not being afraid that someone will get hurt cause of me. I-I'm scared."

Spencer pulls me in for a hug and rubs my back.

"Shh. It's ok. I know. I'm scared too, but we will get through this together. Like you tell me, we have each other and Anastasia, the team, Emily, and Strauss on our side. We're going to be ok."

"I don't want to be scared anymore. Living in fear is not a way to live. M-my nightmares... I know you say that they're not real to make me feel better, but they are. The only difference is that everyone in my dreams are from the past and they are replaced with you and Anna and the team and Lynny. Literally anyone and everyone I know and love and care about now."

"Baby, why didn't you tell me that your nightmares actually happened? How many bad things have happened in your life that have you so scared?"

"So many things, Spen. So many things. A lot of them that I don't even say out loud cause I don't want to believe that they actually happened. The reason why I was so graciously blessed with the titles life ruiner, family splitter, family ruiner, homewrecker, whorebag bitch, coldhearted and many more god awful names. The worst part is whenever I'd try to create a fresh start for myself something from my past would creep it way back into my life. First I got ripped away from my life in Vegas right when it was actually getting better for once when I was 10 cause mother dearest wack shit crazy and killed the nanny out of jealousy and as usual everyone blamed me for it cause they blamed me for everything except for Joey and my father."

I didn't realize that Spencer had put our song on my record player and started slow dancing with me as I continued ranting and crying into his pajama shirt. He lets his lips softly lay on my forehead. I hear him release a shaky breath, not wanting to let a tear fall from his eye as he holds me tight. Spencer starts whispering that he loves me and that he won't let anything happen to me in my ear loud enough for me to hear and quiet enough so it won't drown out my voice. I know the tone he's using. He's trying to convince me that he won't let anything happen to me, but mostly trying to convince himself that what he's saying is true.

"Then I get kidnapped party due to you guessed it fucking Susan gave one of the kidnappers split personality and he and the other three assholes had it out for me so I change my name, look, life, everything and get toxic relationships along with mental and literal battle scars, then I move here and meet my coworkers who take me in and call me family and get into this amazing, loving relationship with you. To top it all off my biggest fear comes true which makes me have single handedly put everyone I love and care about in danger. Really makes me live up to the kind names I've been given by Lillian, my kidnappers, some of my family and any other criminal or person from my hometown in Florida that still hates me for Alice dying and me living that knows me. I just want it to end. When is it gonna end? If anything were to happen causing Braelynn and I to have to go into witness protection outside of Virginia I wouldn't be able to just strip her away from her life here. She finally made a friend that isn't Jack. She's my baby girl. I just want her to have the best life possible."