One rainy day, Knowing that everyone was home, I went to my room and started to crying so hard, because my heart was so broken ; I don't know why but I know that's not good but I was so weak , I have nothing to do I was tired of comparisons, insults, fake impressions. I cried out loud . Then, I thought I was going to die as much as I cried . Every time I feel sad I asked myself,
"Why you live without dying?"
After a while a friend of mine left a message, I looked at it, it relieved my sadness , but someone might say it was JUST A FUNNY MOMENT, that's when I started to strengthen my weak mind. They spoke to my heart and they told me ,
" when you look at yourself in the mirror and looking to those frightened eyes and ass the same question over and over again, loving yourself is harder than loving another and we don't need permissions to love ourselves."
Every mistake I made, I accept that, it's all mine. my past, my present, my future, it's all mine. Maybe there are unanswered questions but i don't want to die, because one of them told me that,
" Even if you feel like you're alone, don't throw yourself away."
It's true as they say, I'm still finding who I am. But now I'm much stronger than I was.
They taught me to hold my grief and treat others with a beautiful smile. And because of them i have already come forward after going through a lot of difficult times. Now I don't try to me,my feelings or my pattern, because that's me, and I believe that mistakes always teach us a lesson. So, I don't try to hide my mistakes anymore.
But that weak part of my mind is still with me, however now I'm learning how to love myself.
I love those voices... I love that voices inspire me, I love that lightness I feel when listening to those voices....
So much things has changed in my life but I still love my past so much.
" Drink a cup of warm tea
Looking up at the milky way
You'll be fine this is magic shop"
" If I was afraid of everything, could you believe me?
All the sincere time left
All your answers are here
In your mind in your milky way"
" You gave me the best of me
So you'll give the best of You
you found me , you know me
you will find it in your galaxy"
Those are some of magical phrases they said.
So, guys this one of most precious moment in my life.
We should always remember that, we should accept who are we and always try to be ourselves.
All of us can have mistakes but we don't need to hide them, cuz mistakes always teach us a lesson
LOVE YOURSELF💜✨
