𝑫𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉 & 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 |Gilbert Blythe

Chapter 15-Thomas

"Did it feel good?" asked Gilbert.

"Too good but I gotta make breakfast, darling we cant miss breakfast."

He gets up to carry me back to bed. "Let me make breakfast" he said passing me my night gown giving me a peck on the lips. "I love you" he said

"I love you too"

He put on his clothes for the day walking downstairs. I lay in my room looking at the cieling. "I'm about to get married in a couple of days I connot believe myself" I thought placing my hand on my forehead wiping my hair off my face.

"I can't believe I died before I got to see it" said a familiar voice as I looked next to the window.

"Arthur??!!!!" I shouted, but thankfully Gilbert didnt hear.

"Shhhhh I'm not actually here, but congratulations you got married to the man that left after you didn't say I love you."

"I know"

"Did you invite Thomas?"

"I forgot I got to invite him, I'll pass by his home later today to give him an invitation."

"I hope hes okay"

"Same, I miss his comfort." said Arthur as Gilbert walked in with a plate of burnt bread and eggs.

"Oh god" Me and Arthur said at the same time looking at that plate. "Maybe I'll skip breakfast. You can have it though"

I got up ignoring my legs putting on my dress grabbing one of the invitations heading out.

It was a long walk to Thomas house but I made it thankfully. I knocked on the door as thomas opened it.

"Aurora?"

"He doesn't look good" said Arthur behind me.

"How have you been Thomas?"

"I've been okay, would you like to come in?"

"Sure" I said walking in. The house smelled like alcohol and my heart broke for him as I saw a portrait that he drew of my brother.

"I apologize for the mess I haven't been up to date."

"It's ok"

"I'm still figuring out a way to forget Arthur, I'm sorry forbringing him up."

"I was the cause of this?" said Arthur as he sat next to me on the couch. I know Arthur wishes he could see Thomas but he can't.

"Arthur died weeks ago you have to-"

"Don't tell me I have to move on, he was my first love and not only that he understood me, he understood my background, he undertook where I came from. I had the same childhood, a father who would use alcohol to cope-"

"Doesn't mean you have to turn out like him, now I am going to get married in two day here is the invitation. Thomas clean your self up, if anyone walked into this home they would think a pig lived here. This is not a way of coping nor is it a way to get over the person you love." I turned for the door seeing Arthurs eyes in tears. Seeing thomas like this broke his heart, it broke mines aswell but i knew how to hide it.

"Wait" said Thomas as i stopped. "I apologize for the drinking and I apologize for everything, I loved your brother and he was the only person in my life that actually gave a damn about me so I apologize. I just can't find no one else to love because I love men not women, and if anyone knew my head would have been chopped off already."

"I understand that you have to hide yourself but just because that one person that had took so long to look for is gone that doesn't mean their won't be another, believe in yourself and they will come and you will love them with all your heart." I said leaving heading home.

"I did that to him." said Arthur tears still falling from his eyes.

"No you didnt dont blame stupidity on yourself you didnt do nothing."

"Remember when mother used to do that? Blame everything on herself and when you think about it now, it was her fault."

"Your not mother and your not father so just because they did something doesnt mean you have to do it too."

"Fine" he said as we walked home in silence. Before opening the door he said "congrats on not being a virgin no more"

"Remember what mother used to say about first times."

"She said to do it with the person you love and not with the person you think you love, she said, your mind makes you believe the wrong thing love is someone you gives you comfort and who knows what to do when you feel a certain way. Someone who cheers you up and makes you laugh. Does gilbert make you feel that way or Louis?"

"How did you?"

"I was protecting you from above, I saw that you needed helpso here I am. I'm your guardian angel."

"I think I loved him but not truly"

"What about Gilbert?"

"I love him"

"Okay then their is your answer you welcome now go tellyour husband that"

I laughed at his words giving him a hug.

"I need you here" I said tears on my face as i felt the last touch of my brother.

"No you need me up there, now goodbye I love you and take care I'll protect you and I'll help lead you away from harms way."

I walk in seeing Gilbert and Sebastian cooking. I smile at them looking at gilbert as he come gives me a hug.

"I love you" I whispered.

"I love you too, beautiful."