the meaning:
it is an anxiety disorder when the person or typically a child doesn't talk in a certain situation for ex. school. and they talk normally when they are with the people she/he comfortable with.
it lasted long.
to be honest I was doing good
i participate in class
i do good grades
i made two amazing friends
then they question me:
why just them? why do you not talk with us too?
i want to tell them:
you didn't try to know me, they did.
then i was punished by my teacher by going to the clinic to pretend to be sick which i don't normally do.:
she seats me in the center of the class and yelled at me all of my classmates are looking at me. it has gotten worse.
Elementary:
I was bullied occasionally
High school:
I was bullied by the whole class.
it was a speech choir they blame me. ONLY ME. For not speaking
how could you f*cking know?! It a group! I was doing my best!
Everyday I was bullied. everyday I cry to sleep. I cut my faces on the class pictures that is how bad i f*cking felt.
they chased me to the girl's bathroom and banging the door, i cried i begged them to stop then I stop. my upper body frozen. it was worsen.
then only just then the school noticed. I was bullied 99 percent of the class.
Sophomore
i begged my parents to transfer me to a school with no bullies
lol like i can escape bullies.
it's a catholic school. I tried to chat. I did have friends but I do not feel that there real, just using them to satisfy my mother that I can have friends.
then 3rd year, I bullied again. not too harsh but they are invading my personal space.
College
I was lost
i though i love the course but it was too much for me.
i felt numb
the subjects aren't hard.
i don't have a purpose
or motivation
i fear the future.
