Finding yourself can be an exciting and exhausting at the same time. It's important to explore and learn new things. Becoming indepedent is the best thing you can do for yourself. Once you realize you don't need to have people around at all times of your life, you begin to live differently.
Sometimes, it even takes getting rid of people in your life. Take a look through your social media friends and weed out the ones that you never talk to. The ones that you never see post or achknowledge your posts. Start keeping a smaller circle. A more private life. Remind yourself, that not everyone needs to know what is going on in your life. Surely, your life will be a lot quieter at first. But that gives you a chance to grow.
Growing is the best part about life.
If you have a backyard and you're able to do things to it, do them. Don't tell anyone until after. You have your opinions and ideas. When you voice them, others will voice them too. That's usually when our minds go off track and we get discouraged from doing the things we want to do. Plant a garden. Get a fire pit. Some lawn chairs. Even a patio set.
Go to the library or get a kindle, if you dont' already have one, and read a book. Put your phone down and read. Even if its a chapter or two a day. Dive into something to escape reality for a little bit. Sometimes books can give you a new look on life. How important cutting things out can be.
Go to the store and get some drawing/painting supplies. Some people find that its a good way to express yourself.
I always thought that I needed someone to love me in order for me to be. As I get older, I realize, that's not the case. I needed to love myself. After talking and meeting new people and studying behaviors and learning about them, it's become easier to be myself. I've learned how to be a little bit more social. It's also where I've developed new interests. Never thought that I would actually be interested in documentaries, or court trials, or anime. Turns out, I am. Even getting a new taste in music.
I always thought I was a weird person with how I was. I didn't really have any interests. My only interest was probably shows on netflix. As I grow older, I look back at all the things I was interested in before. In an earlier life. Things that no one really does anymore. You know. The simple easy things in life. Like taking a walk. Or a roadtrip. Driving to a random "hole in the wall" for food. Picinics. Just sitting and talking. Blanket forts. Taking silly pictures. Movie nights, or date nights. Ice cream dates. Sitting down and opening a book. Having a campfire by myself. I even got better at cooking.
What I'm trying to get at is, Fuck what other people have to say. It's about you and what's going to be best for you. You don't need the things you think you do. Eventually all of it will come when the time is ready.
You can't rush being happy. You can't rush love. You can't rush life. When you rush everything, you tend to lose sight of the important things. You tend to settle for what you think is "enough" and eventually you become unhappy. Focus on you and let everything just happen. I know that it's easier said then done. But when you do finally meet your person, it'll be worth the wait. You have to love yourself before you can expect someone else to. In todays world, being an independent person is the best thing you can do. People like independence. It's a good characteristic to have. Knowing that you aren't constantly relying on other people to give you happiness, is really good for your mental health as well.
